him struggling to breathe. like, literally, every... fiber of his body was struggling to breathe. i am one of the many people who lost a father, a mother, a grandparent. covid basically destroyed our collective connection to entire generations. one patient... who came down with covid-19 after her husband came down with covid-19. and her daughter said to me, "you have to save my mother. we have had eight members of my family die from covid already." "we can't lose her, too." fortunately, we were able to save her. but that gives you a little picture of how quickly it went through families, and actually destroyed some families. [dr. smith] when we would decide to intubate someone,