>> okay. that's enough, all right? that's enough. >> i don't smell it. >> you forget you can't smell. >> can i smell? >> you overseason everything. >> i couldn't imagine, one, somebody doing this on their own. and two, i just -- i wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. i've cried harder than any man has ever cried or should be able to cry, and my wife was there to support me to where i could just put my head on her shoulder and cry. it's that constant struggle where my inner voice wants to keep going forward, and the good voice says, yeah, come on, you have that inner strength to do it. but the bad voice says no, stay here.