command wracked with convulsions, a painful death. >> i tell you, i don't care how many screams you hear, i don't care how many anguished cries. death is a million times preferable to ten more days of this life. >> what i experienced and saw was absolute chaos and insanity. >> die with a degree of dignity. lay down your life with dignity. don't lay down with tears and agony. >> tim carter walked back to the pavilion and saw his 1-year-old son malcolm in the arms of his wife gloria. >> here's sharon cobb, the pediatric nurse practitioner with a syringe in malcolm's mouth. gloria is standing there tears streaming down her face. just agony written all over her face. >> these syringes found later