about as honest as we got sometimes. i will use a technical term, mr. president, i hope you will forgive me. i begged. he kept diaries as u.n. ambassador, as rnc chairman. and then a little of a diary in 1980 sporadically as vice president. he was good in odd-numbered years. because in even-numbered years, he was out campaigning. so he was on the road for congressional and senate candidates. starting on november 4, 1986, he said, i'm beginning a diary about the biggest challenge of my life, the biggest mission of my life, i'm going to run for president. and it was the day they lost the senate. and so it starts kind of dark. but he did this throughout the '88 campaign. then as president, he missed a week or two maybe, but not many. he would do it early in the morning. sometimes up in the tree room,