plank, i grabbed it with my hands and i threw it out into the bathroom. i leaned over there, the middle partition. i tried to open the door from the inside, but there was no key in the door and i leaned over the middle partition of the door, and i saw the key was on the floor at that point. all i wanted to do was climb into the toilet over the middle part of the door. i -- once i leaned over the partition to get in the door i saw the key. i opened the door. i threw it open and i sat over reeva and i cried. and i don't know -- i don't know how long. i don't know how long i was there for. she wasn't breathing. >> we'll take an adjournment.