friend and colleague. >> fire away. >> you said 13 years. >> yeah. >> diagnosed 13 years ago? >> yeah, i had problems going back to when i was covering the clinton white house. i have not been able to feel my legs since the late 1990s. and it took a while to figure out what it was. and after i had some issues covering the 2008 republican convention, for cnn, when i had problems, problems moved from my legs up to my upper body and my hands and that's when i got the diagnosis, the mris and the scans and they diagnosed me with ms. and back in those days it was frightening, very frightening. i decided to keep it a secret and kind of got caught in that. and very few people, a few people, dozen people know, my siblings, my family, those close to me and my family have known about it and more recently i told some people i work with. mistake to keep it a secret because if i can do anything to help, i should have done that. i was scared early on. it is a challenge. it sucks. every day it is with me in some nagging way. other days it is with me in more profound challenging ways. you fall down, can't pick things