somebody -- if they were at the window to where the passage entrance of the passage was, could be three or four meters, they could be there at any moment. and first -- the first thing that ran through my mind was that i needed to arm myself, that i needed to protect reeva and i, they needed to get my gun. >> so there ltht it is. i had no time to do anything else, you with the checking and the asking and the talking. there's somebody who is coming into my bathroom to kill me. i've lived in fear of this my entire life. i have to get my gun so i can protect us. >> his gun is under his bed where his prosthetic legs are and the same bed that reeva steencamp is in. it just doesn't really make sense. >> i'm focused on the threat. they're right there in the bathroom. three or four meters away. >> i think if you have the time to go to the bed to get your gun, you have the time to put your legs on and you have the time to make sure that reeva is in bed and safe.