kind of pitiful person really. but then again, you know i'm not the judge of myself. and maybe i was doing the best i could. where do i come home? at night? i looked at the heavens. people say to me frequently or you were duped. you know, why don't you go on with your life instead of, you know, continuing to think about this? but i still believe in all the teachings of t endo. and. that if i continue to grow, then i will. potentially passed through the heaven's gate. the birth canal.