would watch it and critique herself. and she was constantly trying to be better. when i found out it was dawn, i was shocked. that could have been me. i could have been the spotter. what if i was there and i could have saved her? you know, all these things go through your mind. >> john selig is the guy who was in 1987 crushed between two whales at seaworld of san diego. now even though i had been working at seaworld for six months, i had no idea that had even happened. i never heard the story. and the seaworld party line would say it was a trainer error. >> it was john's fault. john's fault. he was supposed to get off that whale. and for years i believed that. i told people that.