energy on recounting the events. i think at first i did a couple times, you know, what if i had gone with the first crowd of people that went over to the bar, maybe this wouldn't have happened to me, you know. what if i decided that i wasn't going to go to the game this year. and i think i did that for a little while before i said well, what if anything. that's not what happened. this is what happened. this is what you have to deal with. >> you're dealing with it. >> i am. >> i'm so impressed by the people who rushed in to help people like yourself, who, you know, took off their belts and tied tourniquets and -- >> yeah. that, i think, from this experience, my initial, you know, takeaway has been that people will do things that you would just never expect them to. i mean, the folks who actually got me out there, got me outside on to the ambulance didn't know me, they had no obligation to help me. they were really putting their own lives at risk because they didn't know what was going to