he prayed we wouldn't be sad or scared for him anymore because he wasn't sad or scared. and he added, i'm okay with whatever god decides. >> did that bring you peace? >> a lot, yes. he wasn't afraid of dying anymore at that point. the day he chose to make this video, we had that home church that morning, and we didn't know what he was doing afterwards, but that's when he went into his room and made this video. >> so a week later, christmas day. >> we actually had a wonderful christmas morning together. we opened presents as a family. we were all laughing and ben was very adamant about playing our annual family game of monopoly. and it was right after that that he went outside with jake and watched him jump on the trampoline with his friends.