s.e.a.l., 20 years in the navy, there was a core of who you were deep down inside, but you had all these disguises layered on sop of it. so no one knew the real you? >> no one ever met the real me. >> although the people that you served with -- >> never. >> you're in this incredibly secretive community. you're in this masculine military community, the navy s.e.a.l.s. >> yes. >> so that's got to add another layer to it. >> a huge layer. it was like that onion. you peel that back and you have as many layers of the onion as you can. but deep down inside the middle is where my female persona was hidden. >> did you like being a s.e.a.l.? >> yes. it's amazing. can you imagine being in a group of people where life and death