wraps it around my neck. he sits me down on the floor and he says this is where you're going to stay until i can trust you. now if i do it too tight and you don't make it, that means you wasn't meant to stay here that means god wanted to take you. so he proceeded to put it on my neck, and then he tied it around my stomach, and he took my hands and bound it behind me, and he took a motorcycle helmet and he put it over my face to where i couldn't breathe at all and later on, i didn't remember a thing because i had passed out. >> was there ever a point that she sort of resigned herself to the idea she could be held by this man for the rest of her life? >> i think she never gave up hope, but of course, when days turn into weeks which turn into months which turn into years, then you begin to get into what i would term as a learned