i've talked to you often on air, you guys, and debs a load, and rachael, and the archive is such an immense a treasure trove. out of all the podcasts the bbc does, i've got friends now who are going through cancer and they're going right back to the start and listening in. one of the other things that was useful to me and specifically with rachael was i remember vividly the day she said to me, "i'm thinking of writing a book". and she was full of self doubt — she'll have gone through all this at home with you — when she was, you know, "will freddie..." you know, "what am writing it for?," etc. and i was able to channel me. i've got have one video of my mum, it's on a little cd, and she'sjust looking at the sea. and i always remember my uncle arthur saying, "your mum "loved the sea". and i didn't know that. and i've latched on to — that's the only thing i know my mum loved, the sea. so i said to rachael, "write everything down. "everything you've ever thought, everything you've ever "watched, every" — you know, freddie will lap it up when gets older. and i felt, you know, that was very cathartic