i was on my own because my family didn't want anything to do with me at that point and, eventually, i was homeless. so i felt that i needed to hear from this thing that is causing me suffering, and so i took myself to churches. reject sodomy! reject perversion! they were praying for me. and then as they're praying, i started taking — and then as they're praying, they started taking — stripping me off. it was my clothes making me a man, so they stripped me naked. and they started to lay their hands on me, and these are boys and their pastor, they laid hands in particular on my genital area because they say that was the centre of it all. and that is when i felt that it is torture. but i said, "this is who i am."