itjust seemed, well, you know, it's these are early days. we have a mission in a way. i didn't see it as such, but i deeply held something in there saying, i have a mission to be in these places so that i can, so that black people could be in these places. and then we started making our own situation, you know, own companies and helping the other person and so on and so forth. but it was difficult and very frustrating. wonderful. i was very fortunate to be constantly working at something or other and in some other capacity, some other group, some other something at the edinburgh festival, something groundbreaking for us to be seen in this. in that capacity, i was always there.