do you want to live this life? your period can't stop you from doing that." and i said, "it's notjust my period. "my feet are swollen. like, i have blisters." he said, "excuses, excuses." to be denied something so basic, like lauren was, going to the toilet, it's really shocking. and the more i hear about this industry, the more i'm questioning, why would somebody want to stay? there's a word that keeps cropping up in a lot of the conversations i'm having. it was very cult—like. like, they would worship my managing director. i remember one day, i literally was on our way, i said, "oh, my god, it's cold today." and they're like, "why would you say something like that?" i was like, "what do you mean? i'm just stating the weather." and they were like, "we don't complain about things "we can't control here." i was so, so scared of failing and letting everybody down. it was so hard to be able to think that this is toxic. this isn't how it should be. i was brainwashed, essentially. it's very...culty, you know... what is it exactly that makes