i said, "can we please just go home? "it has ruined it now and even if we did get in it wouldn't be the same," so that's why we ended up going in the end. for many of those who made it to their seats, the relief of finding safety eclipsed the game itself. i just barely watched certainly the first half of the game of football. i remember none of it. nobody inside the stade de france from liverpool cared about the match. everybody looked like ghosts. you could see the sort of emotional exhaustion and fear. the final whistle blew. liverpool lost 1—0. riot police formed a line in front of liverpool fans. as they left the stadium, they found themselves in danger yet again. i was already an emotional wreck from what i had witnessed and, you know,