ijust loved him so much and even thinking about it hurts. ijust miss him so much. ijust didn't think it was everfair. why my child? over the years, ruth neave has shared her story with us, remembering the last time she saw her son alive. i woke him up in the morning, and i had been up all night because my baby had been in hospital a week before and ijust got home, he got ready for school and i always take him to school. this morning, he actually ran out the house so quickly. apparently, he was meant to be stealing some barbie shoes for his sister. he said he would go straight to his friends. it got to 5pm and i thought, it's never this late.