what the government is trying to do. and that's what i tried to do. did that feel limiting? did it feel annoying to go home and sort of have to say to yourself, i don't know whether you could say it to friends or family, "i don't agree with this stuff." i mean, it's part of thejob. if you can't do that, then you shouldn't be a civil servant, because you've got to live your professional life on somebody else�*s terms. and in the end, i left because i didn't feel that that was what i wanted to do for my whole life. did you leave, though, because it didn't work out? you see that phrase, thatjob title, private secretary to the head of the diplomatic service probably means nothing to most people listening. in the business, that means the guy tapped up to rise to the top of this organisation. he's being trained. what went wrong? why didn't you get it? well, i left. did you leave because you weren't