and it's wonderful news. this is the gift i have been asking, to be able to hold my son in my arms, alive. little angelo has arrived safe and well. so, when i last saw you and paulson, it was a really anxious time. it now looks as though you're in a very different place. iam. i mean, when we last met, i was thinking... i was still doubting, to be honest, that i would have such a healthy baby and, you know, such a good outcome. our little angelo is a month old today. we just marked on monday we lost our baby a year ago, so it's been, you know, we have mixed feelings. we don't know how we feel, to be honest.