myself, i feel guilty and ifeel as a coward. because when the police came back when i was 2a and they say we had some complaints about other child... with this particular individual? with this particular individual. and i say, "no." are you sure? and i say, "no." you lied? i lied. and at that moment i was like, i'm letting down so many other child. that's why i think i wasn't ready mentally. but now i am ready and that's why i send this message, is not me, it's for the other kids outside there. and you should come out and you will feel better and hope those persons will stop abusing another child. maybe it says something also about the nature of the dressing room, the mentality that footballers have to have. you can't really show vulnerability, you can't discuss your emotional troubles when you are at the elite level in a professional sport like football. but that's why i'm like, in football no—one care