for my brother, i knew i would never touch any drug. but you did deal drugs for a while? i did some marijuana because when my dad left there wasn't any authority. and for my mum to feed — because it one point we were 13 kids at home. 13? yeah. i've got 2a brothers and sisters. my dad never watch tv or use the remote, he was a busy man. and 89 nephews and they all call me santa. so i need to fight for them. i needed to play and do something, a job and having money so everything was possible then. i would try to make — using any opportunity to get money. there was something that happened in your childhood that i know has taken you many years to talk about. something that wasn't about you being defiant, being strong, running on the street, but actually about you as a very vulnerable boy. it happened when you were 13 years old.