particularly, apart from my brothers and my parents. my brothers are eight and five years older than me, so we didn't really hang out together or anything like that. and i had friends, but it was... inevitably, i had this split personality, almost, where i'd be living in a home where we'd talk about india a great deal, or my parents would be speaking punjabi quite a lot... so you were in kent but you felt very indian? sometimes, but when i would go to school, i'd have all the same reference points as everyone else around me. so i'd be listening as a teenager to led zeppelin, the doors, all kinds of different stuff, and also jazz — but at home, i'd often listen to flamenco, indian classical music, cuban music, different music from around the world. and the other key aspect of your childhood was racism. yeah, a lot. you were bullied and abused, sometimes by adults as well as by other children.