right, i'm ready to go. are you keen to answer it as well? oh, yes, yes. you can stop to think about an answer, you don't have to do it all in one go — it'sjust a conversation with me and i'll take you — i'll take you through the experiences. absolutely, yeah. um, yeah, 0k. clapper bangs. you're literally lying face down, pressed yourface into this frozen earth, thinking, "i don't want to die here. "i don't want to die here. "why?" yeah. you know, that, i think — well, it was, for all of us, it was hugely traumatic. there's corpses of your enemy, corpses of your friends, you know, just lying there. it had a massive effect on me and i know it had a massive effect on a lot of my friends, too. that scene of horror will never, never leave my mind. not a single day in the last 40