you know, i lost my dad, and so many other people have lost loved ones and that should be understood and appreciated and felt with sympathy, rather than, you know, we need to get on with it, and back to normal. that's impossible. that will never happen for bereaved family members. josh willis with his two daughters, lily anna and evie grace, just before christmas. i never thought i would have to bring up the two wee ones on my own, ever. it's too much to take in. ijust have to keep going forward. that's all i can do. if it was the other way around, that's what i would want samantha to do — keep going forward.