i got home and told mel, and the following day i went to see my gp. i thought he had a brain tumour. i decided that must be, you know, the personality differences, the short—term memory. and the september when he came home distressed from the bike ride, i insisted the next morning and made him go straight away that monday morning. my neurologist said, "are you sat down? it's not good news." so mel and i held hands, and he said, with everything put together — the scans, the neuropsychological testing that he gave me — the diagnosis of early onset dementia and probable cte. we were crying, we were screaming. iran into the toilet and was physically sick during that diagnosis phone call.