never entertainment, that was never realistic. but i got into entertainment when i was 17, and after that, life just... i kept looking at the next rung of the ladder and then slowly i looked back and i was, like, 60 feet above. you become miss world at a really young age, at the age of... i didn't even know what it meant, honestly. and it appeared to be, like, there's been lots of dramatic changes in your life, but it was probably the first one, and possibly most dramatic one? do you think beauty pageants can be empowering? see, that's a very convoluted...complex question. i think that the equity on physical beauty when it comes to women are defined predominantly by the male gaze, and that makes it confusing, you know, that, "oh, my gosh, your waist is not the right size" or "your height�*s not the right size" or you look a certain way, that makes you beautiful or that doesn't make you beautiful. so that, being judged by the male gaze and the beauty