although he must�*ve known i was gay. and it was 30 years later, i think, shortly before harold died, that i was in a restaurant london and he came by, slightly tottery and i stood up to greet him and he leaned into my ear and said, i am sorry about betrayal. was it a premeditated decision when you went on a radio 3 show, i think it was, the third ear, and it was a publisher associated with the sunday telegraph and used two words, like myself, in reference to homosexuality, was it a premeditated decision that that would be the moment? i don't know. it probably was, it probably was. i think that the moment at which you use those two words, like myself, was a very significant moment in post—war british history, because i think it gave a lot of other people confidence.