A holocaust survivor to document your brings big sonja thats all from us though for that i will back to our morning with the latest headlines see that. We are told with a new cold war with china it is not coherently explain to us why even worse where is the strategy there is it was also sat down. And i came out from this hell i really could not even shill happy ever and sometimes even people were joking about something i would catch myself if i was even electing i feel guilty. And its very probably due to cooled for a normal person to get to spend understand you live with that all your life i want to punt and we will live with it we did not receive help like now when our boys are coming from the wars and then finally they need to know for the how do you call it depression when we didnt have. The big things were all the time gone. And. They would take off you know where you are but never your wedding and sometimes i would you know do it different way. To go sometimes to dead. In very good hour auschwitz your living. Every moment. With. It was really like living in hell. And i went to a tear. I want to. Be doing because says woman was living is also the 2 front teeth knocked out. Doors to be was. Her making some braids in each grade had to be tested to be fixed on the knob because this was going to grab the bombs. You see. The gentleman. The one day. The main assessment from our streets. And he started to test those but. He called me. I was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to escape. And he was beating me. He was wearing heavy boots. And yours bidding me up from top to bottom. When they left i was all below the. Block was gone home gushing from all over i really dont know how i make did stitches was my worst beating. And the girls couldnt believe it and. People dont know when they look at you and the really incites left you its left a scar at that it. You never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. You know when the wish for anybody to to understand whats happening you dont know what way. And you are there. And its takes a long time until you get out of it. And the sophist im talking about. Its right. That. You go on. And. I felt every moment missing my mom. First the war she would be going to. How happy she would be and then leading me in what to do i was just like helpless i dont know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. Its cannot be described in the real mothers love and i missed it. You know its hard for me to know call eve day ever saw me crying could be. I really tried my best to protect them and. I kept a lot of things away theres something say i didnt want them to know. When the time already came when they saw my now and there were days when mother what disease you can imagine and theyre too warm and what can you tell it in a used to say well they put this number because youre very good laws found me go find your mama and thats it enclosed. As older i got in i looked back. And indeed between the lines. That they really held it. So this is something id completely forgotten about its an anthology of poems by children of Holocaust Survivors and i remembered having a poem published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paul meant was the poem was called sonia at 32. I dont remember this poem and all that ill read it for you and i havent seen it in like a long time. Sonia at 32. 00 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. Dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the cherry tree for her this year. And carry 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a Long Distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little son. Who is her husband over and over she sings the song her dead. Kid ringback. How did he know i do you know are you. There you are. No your hair looks. Now whats going on. Do you gentlemen ation. Pronounce it a you know it says there are madam please allow this left their. Formal note oh youll lose your installation. If you have any questions. Or contact me. It was really shocking point for me. And i have to prepare myself to close it down to. About now well this is what i was saying to myself. Whats happening now i have to change gears to. Keep larry are sort of. Horrible things that i cannot believe myself sometimes when i close my. Eyes. You know i tell you one thing. Its always in my mind. When. I remember whenever you. Look more down youll be on time. How many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even counting you know exactly how many years i started to speak he took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. People will take the hate from their hearts and respect you for. Me but i was very very wrong. And this is. The talk just me so deeply when i hear one see we have long been. Made to still growing. More than there would be. So you go lowney youre. In a way very disappointed to know world him feeling goes a dissing way. Here speaking up is not enough. I was starting out a life sentence. 17 with a life that. I was. In a mature prison. And i was not a humble person excusing. Contributing much other than. Carnegie and i just really didnt have any use for anything positive i just thought you know the president i. Love. You so much. As you never know who youre going to meet is going to change your life. Would shape or form theyre going to come here. I mean. I am to yourself. And i mean in a program in all the kansas presence called reaching out from within. The national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least one. Hour program if you are 10 between 68 Early Morning that means a little more than a year. It drops 2 percent. There are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important problems yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your piece of. The optimist creed we finish with every night through every group we finish with we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if you just believe things are going to be alright thats. Thats a big majority of things being all right. So here i am having coffee and reading a newspaper about the closing of a Shopping Center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her youve lost so many things in your life youve had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. And she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimists creed and when i come in every morning thats the 1st thing that i. And i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the optimus creed i have to bring them together. You cannot be both with the yeah you want. d to. Look better. Than. The new to live in sharing good citizen do so you can own your local coop talking to. The joy of one. Day or at least a little enjoying this stuff but dont take this as fake fixing because if you could stinky everybody will know its just a way of normal more lepage a lot more c. Of re more. Or less deprives your life the most bucks here with me politically to use functionally the debate leading to please him. And a dumb bunch is likely deficient she says shes. Not. Just. American now oh she was really like to be in hell. Goes you would never believe it wasnt a human can do to as a. One day that i was working in to field one date and cant come said with. The ashes were spreading the ashes as a fairy tale lies there and i can tell you based spreading those you know with their soul i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could im a tortilla it couldnt bore completely and this was very difficult on me until today i still live with this saved me a kick in the. Pity parties. To exterminate through race. Maybe that injury was when he was beating me up by remaking it and the now i can make it i can make it out. So you gotta remember to look at these numbers on my server see the number are. There when i seen. It made me say yeah. I never knew who did not see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to judge you how you look or you know what is your religion but as a person what a person your. Experience is everything. I me you takes people who have been through something to reach people who who are going through something. I mean is some people who go out and do crazy things hurt others because they are hard and they dont think things will get better for. And when you say oh. You look at her as you see. Things are good for her now them i gave you the courage to say you know. Im not going to what i was thinking about i dont. How do you find forgiveness. Forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to a conclusion myself there are so bored there seems forgiveness what i see in people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile theyre burned i would say the people who passed about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be practiced. To put to loath in your heart. You become like a different person i see the parole board in the 6 months or so. Hopefully ill be. You know contribute something. Every time and so that around. I hope that all of you in time will be in freedom but in the freedom never to come back to this place even like i say still now the war started although i did mention to you. Theres. A way thank you so wonderful to those you trust not only me but a lot of these guys in here that youve given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me very much to get out here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really. Seriously. Thats. When i get out on the farm saw you know was there an excuse so he can this in and hopefully be bless well ive. Heard this. Story. Because i believe he needs that opted in course were 32 years and no one can be. Very bad at all this was your mother both of their streamers by our board and it would kill me in just a moment the bride was here. Theres no regard to feel. Shes still alive to offer time. Or even a serious. Personal. Truth place where you come back in. The day. Of your worship now you are picking your nose you know that. If i might make it. Through all the strong things dont come. With us you can be very small where the extremes. In the winter of 944 my mom was forced on the desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills in debt. And this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s. S. Guard on her last day of captivity. Theyre relating to it and theyre thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation now. And its an obligation that im glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. I really feel privileged to know. That i can do this you know i mean to me. And it means to me there and i wish that my father. I wish that he. Had enough. When he was. Here. If. You and i are speaking on the 78th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in Bergen Belsen so it was a very said it was a happy day. To. People because here the prisoners could hear him hell vibrating to hear tanks coming closer and closer they need this liberation. So of course they were starving. For my mother was working. There were still a couple of guards around in the cars trying to stop them as. The bullets came in here and it sent them into my house and it came true. Clothes. And then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. I was the most serious. At the moment when the bullet came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blog start coming. So this was a terrible experience just to see david youve. Made it. She said 5 years. Off the spill. Driving. It is. Literally. In the air when its also. Coming theyre telling their friends about. So you know obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks people they say they want to do something about it. And i thought that it was important that i actually didnt think instead of just talking. So my name is caroline kennedy. In the city and just graduated from high school. So i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story at least changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. With her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. Thats really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has a power to impact one person and its a huge chain reaction. I mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of you now and so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. Were told with a new cold war with china it is not coherently explain to us why even worse is the strategy there isnt one also the size of harm steve. Nash as a financial survival does stacey lets learn a salad feel out lets say im not so i get any earthly grease of the fight 9 wall street spot thank you for something. Was destroyed thats true if you looked at slavery. Youre. All. Are welcome to world the part of an eternal. 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