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And the girls couldnt believe it and. People dont know when they look at you and the really incites left you its left a scar abetted. And you never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. And now when the wish for any bad to to understand whats happening you dont know wait wait. And you are there. And its takes a long time until you get out of it. And the sophist im talking about. Her. But. You go on. And. I felt every moment missing my mom. First award she would be a grandmother and how happy she would be and then leading me in what to do i was just like helpless i dont know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. Its cannot be described if theyre real mosers love and i missed it. You know its hard for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. I really tried my best to protect them and. I kept a lot of things away theres something say i didnt want them to know. When the time already came when they saw my number and there were days when mother what disease you can imagine and theyre too warm and what can you tell it. In a used to say well they put this number because you get lost found me go find your mama and thats it enclosed. As older i got in i looked bad. And indeed between the lines. That they really held it. So this is something id completely forgotten about samantha ology poems by children of Holocaust Survivors and i remembered having a poem published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called sonia at 32. I dont remember this poem and all that ill read it for you and i havent seen it in like a long time. Sonia at 32. 00 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. Dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the cherry tree for her this year. And carry 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kiddie backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a Long Distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little son. Who is her husband over and over she sings the song her dead. Kid. How did he how do you know are you. There you are. Here well no your hair looks good. Now whats going on. I mean to read to you jeremy nation open up your fancy pronounce of the day you know it says dear sarah or madam please allow this letter to sarah as formal notice of your lease cancellation. If you have any questions feel free to contact me. It was really shocking for him to want me. And i have to prepare myself you dont have to close it dented. But now well this is what i was saying to me sarah they saw me at whats happening now i have to change to. Keep larry was sort of. Horrible things that i cannot believe myself sometimes when a close and. How i survived. You know i tell you one thing. Its always in my mind. When i. Used to tell me you know member whenever you darling. No camorra down. How many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. People will literally take with the hate from their hearts and jad respects you for a human being but i was very very wrong. And this is very. Good to talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see we have gone back. And paid to still growing. More than i ever would. So you go warning you. In a way very disappointed to know world in feeling goes a dissing way. Here speaking up is not enough. Ill start. A 17 with a life of. Ours. In a mature prison. I was not a humble person. Process. A lot of my life not really. Contributing much. You know carnegie. I just really didnt have any use for anything positive i just you know im going to be a prison guy. Is for sure. You never know who youre going to be is going to change your life. Would shape or form youre going to come here. I mean will see where im free. I am to yourself and i mean in a program and all the kansas presence called reaching out from within. The national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. On our program if you attend between 16 more meetings at me and said a little more than a year. It drops to 8 percent. There are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern progress the optimist creed we finish with every night through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if we just believe that things are going to be all right that. Thats a big majority of things being all right. So here i am having coffee and. Reading a newspaper about the closing of a Shopping Center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her youve lost so many things in your life youve had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. And she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimists creed and when i come in every morning thats the 1st thing that ive kept and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the up to his creed i have to bring them together. During the vietnam war u. S. Forces also bombed neighboring laos there was a secret war. And for years the American People did not know. How my state is officially the most heavily bombed country per capita in all of Human History millions of unexploded bombs still in danger lives in this Small Agricultural country Jordyn Wieber going to happen there even today kids in laos full victims of bombs dropped decades ago because the us making amends for their tragedy in laos what help do the people need in that little land of mines. They are going no i was really like to be in hell. Because you would never believe it what a human can do to have as. One day that i was working in defeat one day and cant come said turok with a problem that could emerge doria the s. S. Were spreading the s. S. As a fairy tale lies there and i can tell you based spreading there was you know with their so i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could of my toria it couldnt bore completely and this was a very difficult on me till today i still live with this saved me a kick in the. Pity parties. To exterminate through race. This is mainly the injury was when he was beating me up in my room making me more now i can make it i can make it out. Seger i remember to look at these numbers on my server see they were. There when i seen. Him a. Yeah. I never did i would see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to george you how you look or you know what is your religion but as a person what a person you are. Experiences every day. I mean you takes people whove been through something to reach people who who are going through something. I mean theres some people who go out and do crazy things hurt others because theyre hard and they dont think the days will get better for. And when you say oh. You look at her as you see. Things are good for her now then my give you the courage to say you know. Im not going to what i was thinking about i dont. How do you find forgiveness. Forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to a conclusion myself there are so low there seems forgiveness what i have seen people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile theyre burned i would say the people who asked about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i forgive you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be perfect is. To put in loath in your heart try to help you become like a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so. Hopefully ill be. You know contribute something. I return to that around. I hope that all of you in time will be in freedom but in the free dont never to come back to this place either and like i say still mad the war stay all that ive mentioned to you and theres. A way thank you so wonderful come here you go did you not only me but a lot of these guys in here that youve given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me want to stay. To get out here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really need. It there if. You make out. That you when i get out on the farm saw you know what its like my son so had an excuse so he can listen and hopefully be blessed by. Her experience. Straight up because i believe the nice dead bob did a course free 32 years and nothing to be compared with it at all this was your mother both of yesteryear like it would kill me in just a moment the bride was near. This i dont think i could feel. Shes alive to offer by. The. Way to end this war you say you. Were serious right place theyre coming to. Take your. Worship now while you are playing your. You know. If i might make it. Through all the strong days dont go. With us you can be very small. Dreams. You know when youre 944 my mom was forced on the desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills and. This brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s. S. Guard on her last day of captivity. Theyre relating to it and theyre thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation now and its an obligation that im glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. I really feel privileged. That i can do this you know it means to me. And it means to me there and i wish that my father. And i wish that he. Had enough. When he was. He. You and i are speaking on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in Bergen Belsen so it was a very. It was a happy. They. Do do that is that it is an instant. It is here or is there still. With reality vibrating here. Coming closer and closer they either liberation. First they were starting a relief pitcher. Or like the other was working. There were still a couple guards. In the guards for trying to stop the. Shooting if. The bullets came. And it came to that. Close. And then girls with this from the same wallet. That. I was the most serious. At the moment when the bullets came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blog will start coming. Home. So this was a terrible experience just to see dave to do things after so much trauma. But i made it. She survives hears them all and they cant stand up to me else she says they did often spoke to me to try me. Least. 11 years old and a little. At least i am so glad to let. You do it me alone. Literally. I mean there are limits on all summer. And the past summer some of them coming theyre telling their friends about me. Thats middle of. The. Elite. So you know obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks people they say they want to do something about it and they want to make a change. And i thought that it was important that i actually density thing instead of just talking to me. So my name is Caroline Kennedy kansas city. I just graduated from high school. So i may. When i was in 8th grade and 1st story changed my life completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. Her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. Thats really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has a power to impact one person and its a huge chain reaction. I mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of you now and so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. d it. Could pick. Up. To the pushy of the citizens who said you can only put the loco up parking. Lot that just happened on. Board the cinema will be shown this up but dont take care of the slides faked fixing to force you to put stink feet to the body with no escape. For him all. Your life through my proximity with the prince agreed. To the bank lydia to please him. And i know the answer is likely to shift shift. Yes for it. The president s press conference from the new state Department Auditorium march 23rd 1961. I want to make a brief statement about laos. It is i think important for all americans. To understand this difficult and potentially dangerous problem. These 3 maps show the area of effective communist domination as it was last august and now from december 20th to the present day the end of march the communist control a much wider section of the country. The position of this administration has been carefully considered. And we have sought to make it just as clear as we know how to the governments concern 1st we strongly and undeservedly support the goal of a neutral and independent layo. To no outside. Group of powers threatening no one and free from any domination. By fellow americans they are far away from america but the world and. The security of Southeast Asia will be in danger if lay off loses its neutral independence i want to make it clear to the American People and all the world that all we want in layoffs is not