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That. You go on. And. I felt every moment missing my mom. First award she would be a grandma how happy she would be and then leading me in what to do i was just like helpless i dont know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. Its cannot be described in the real mosers love and i missed it. I know its hard for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. I really tried my best to protect them and. I kept a lot of things away or something say i didnt want them to know. When the time already came when they saw my number and there were days me mother what disease you can imagine and theyre too moment what can you tell him you know used to say well they put this number because you get lost found me go find your mama and thats it enclosed. As older i got in i looked back. And it is between the lines. That they really held it. So this is something id completely forgotten about samantha ology poems by children of Holocaust Survivors and i remembered having a poem published in it but until i just opened it up i have to remember what paula was the poem was called at 32. I dont remember this poem at all that ill read it for you and i havent seen it in like a long time. At 32 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. Dark clouds dark cauliflower fests i climb the cherry tree for her this year. And carry 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she yells at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a Long Distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little son. Who is her husband over an overseas sings the song her. Kids. Were ringback. You know are you. Here you are. No your hair looks. Let it snow what is going on. Do you gentlemen nation oh. You know it said do you say there are madam please allow this let there. Was form no oh you least installation. If you have any. Chance for me to contact me. It was really shocking point to me. And i have to prepare myself you dont have to close it. Dated. But now well this is what i was saying to me sarah a sunday at whats happening now i have to change gears to where i keep larry are sort of. Horrible things that i cant believe myself sometimes when a close male. Ways are waged. You know i tell you one thing. Its always in my mind. When. You stick your member whenever you are down. No camorra down. How many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. People will literally take with the hate from their hearts and jad respects you for a human being but i was very very wrong. And this is a very. Big talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see were going back towards the hate to still growing. More than i ever would. So you go warning you but. In a way very disappointed to know world in feeling goes a dissing way. Here speaking up is not enough. Ill start and ill live. 17 with a life of. Ours. In which sure. I was not a humble person. A lot of my life not really. Contributing much. You know carnegie. I just really didnt have any use for anything positive i just you know im going to be a prison guy. Is for sure in your. Songs i never know who youre going to be is going to change your life. Would shape or form youre going to come here. I mean will see what i mean for me. I am able to yourself. And i mean in a program in all the kansas presence called reaching out from within and. The national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. On our program if you attend between 16 mornings at me and said a little more than a year. It drops to 8 percent. There are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern progress the optimist creed we finish with every night through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if you just believe that things are going to be all right that. Thats a big majority of things being all right. So here i am having coffee and. Reading a newspaper about the closing of a Shopping Center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her youve lost so many things in your life youve had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. And she said if you look up on the wall so will see the optimists created and when i come in every morning thats the 1st thing that ive kept and i thought to myself sonia and the optimists crave the prisoners and they have to miscreate i have to bring them together. You care to go with you. During the vietnam war u. S. Forces are also bugs neighbor unless it was a secret war. And for years the American People did not know. We found a mouth so much that is officially the mouth heavily bound country per capita in all of Human History millions of unexploded bombs still in danger lives in this Small Agricultural country so our diary would have been going on to another topic then even today kids in laos full victims of bombs dropped decades ago is the us making amends for their tragedy in laos what help do the people need in that little land of mines. You know in the face of a pandemic virus that spread so rapidly and so quickly throughout the global population it really think in the short run about changing peoples underlying medical needs one hopes that we can learn something from this. In the. Healthier lifestyles to create a more healthy planet. American know it was really like to be in hell. Because he would never believe it what a human can do to have as. One day that i was working in the fields one day and cant come said turok with a problem the government already had the ashes were spreading the ashes as a fairy tale lies and i can tell you based spreading those you know with their soul i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could of my toria it couldnt bore completely and this was a very difficult on me until today i still live with this shave me a kick in the. Geneseo pity parties. To exterminate through race. This is really that injury was when he was beating me up by her making me a mole now i can make it i can make it out. She gotta remember to look at these numbers on my server the total number are. There when i seen. It made me say yeah. I never knew who did not see me somehow i like the story we have to come to this understanding it is what you are inside. Not to george you how you look over you know what is your religion but as a person what a person you are. Experience is everything. To me takes people who have been through something to reach people who who are going through something. I mean as some people who go on do crazy things hurt others because theyre hard and they dont think things will get better from. When you say oh. You look at her as you see. Things are good for her now then my gave you the courage to say you know. Im not going to what i was thinking about i dont. How do you find forgiveness. Forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are so many there seem forgiveness what i have seen people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile theyre burned i would say the people who asked about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i forgive you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be practiced. To put to loath in your heart try to help you become like a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so and. Hopefully ill be. You know contribute something. Every time thats not around. I hope that all of you in time will be in freedom. But enough to dont never to come back to this place either and like i say still mad the war stayed all that ive mentioned to you and theres. A way thank you so wonderful come here to go is due to us not only me but a lot of these guys in here that youve given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me want. To get out here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really. Make out. That. When i get out on the 5 im sorry you. Had an excuse so he can listen and hopefully be bless. Her experiences. Straight up because i believe he needs dead obviating course were 32 years and nothing. Compared to that at all this was your mother both of yesteryear. It would kill me just how much the bride was a near. Miss i dont think i could feel. Shes a lot tougher by. The. Way seriously so you. Know. Theyre coming into. Your. Worship now while you are getting your message know that. If im right you will make it this is you know the strong things dont come. To jesus you can be very small but. You know when youre 1944 my mom was forced on a desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills and. This brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp. And what happened between her and then s. S. Guard on her last day of captivity. Theyre relating to it and theyre thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation. And its an obligation that im glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. I really feel privileged. That i can do this you know i mean to me. And it means to me there and i wish that my father. I wish that he. Had enough. When he was. You and i are speaking on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in Bergen Belsen so it was a very. It was a happy day. Did you. Take that to mean it was least expecting it a. Little bit here or is there still here with reality vibrating here. Coming closer and closer they either liberation. Of course they were starting a relief pitcher. Or like that it was for. There were. Guards that were. In the cars trying to stop the. Shooting or. The bullets came in. And it came through that. Close. And then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. Was the most serious. And at the moment when the bullets came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blocked will start coming and i knew. This was a terrible experience just to see they have to do that. After so much trauma. But i made it. She survived years demo make casts and. They did off the spot to meet the strivings believe. A little. Bit at least. A. Little bit and every little. League i am so glad to let. Me do it needs to. Literally. I mean there are limits on all sides. And the last summers. Coming theyre telling their friends about. It. Thats middle east. So you know obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks people they say they want to do something about it and they want to make it she and she. And i felt that it was important that i actually density thing instead of just touch me. So my name is caroline kennedy. To say be. Just graduated from high school. So i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and its 1st story believe changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. Her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. Thats really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person as a power to impact one person and its a huge chain reaction. I mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of you now and so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. We go to work. Straight home. Is youll be a reflection of reality. In a world transformed. What will make you feel safe. Isolation community. Are you going the right way or are you being led so. Direct. What is true what is faith. In the world corrupted you know. Need to descend. To join us in the depths. For a mate in the shallowest. d it. Could. Ringback come back. To you if you shave a good citizen who said you could open the loco up. That just look up one. Piece in the mall. Should the stuff done a fair size fake fixing to force you to put stinky embody we know its more like theres a lot more see every mall. Lets defy your lies to make bucks if. The predicament is a function that the banks media the police and. I know something is likely to finish it she has just put up. Her. A lot of welcome to worlds of part of in a time of pandemic one of the good news is scarce thank you know that somebody is doing that it would be a cause if not for celebration that hes interested inquiry but thats when it comes to moscow and washington when russia and other countries post much much