Call it depression we didnt have to tell. The beatings were all the time we go on. And. They would take off you know where you are but ever your wearing and sometimes i would you know do it to a different way did your toes sometimes to dead. In a very good hour auschwitz you were living. Every moment. With fear. It was really like leaving in ohio. That went to a terrible too big. To. Be dangerous as woman was getting is all strong that door front. Door just beating was. Making some break. To break it to be tested if it strong. Because this was going to read the bombs. You see. The gentleman. The one day. The main assessment from our streets. And. Started to test those but. He called me. I was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to escape. And he was beating me pretty as boots he was wearing heavy boots. And yours bidding me up from top to bottom. When they left i was all below the. Block was gone home gushing from all over i really dont know how i make this is was made worse beating. And the girls couldnt believe it and. People dont know when they look at you and theyre really insights left you its left a scar abetted. And you never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. And now when the wish for any bad to to understand whats happening you dont know what way. And you are there. And its takes a long time until you get out of it. And this is just im talking about. That. You go on. And. I felt every moment missing my mom. First the war she would be going to. How happy she would be and then leading me in what to do i was just like helpless i dont know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. Its cannot be described the real mosers love and i missed it. I know its hard for me to know call eve ever saw me crying could be. I really tried my best to protect them and. I kept a lot of things away theres something say i didnt want them to know. When the time already came when they saw my number and there were days when mum know what disease you can imagine and there are 2 moment what can you tell him you know used to say well they put this number because you get lost found me go find your mamma and thats it enclosed. As older i got and i looked back. And indeed between the lines. That they really held it. So this is something id completely forgotten about its an anthology of poems by children of Holocaust Survivors and i remembered having a phone published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called at 32. I dont remember this poem at all that ill read it for you and i havent seen it in like a long time. Sonia 32 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. Dark clouds dark cauliflower fests i climb the cherry tree for her this year. And carry a 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she yells at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries Long Distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little son. Who is her husband over and over she sings the song her. Kids. Were. You know you. Never hear you are ok. Well you know your hair looks good. Looking grand. Let it snow what is going on. Do you jeremy nation open up your. Day you know it said do you see sarah or madam please allow this letter to sarah as for me no oh you leave your installation. If you have any. Interest you contact me. It was really shocking point to me. And i have to prepare myself you dont have to close it. Dated. But now well this is what im saying to myself a sunday at whats happening now i have to change gears to. Keep larry are sort of. Horrible things that i cant believe myself somethings been a close. Eye ways to wage. You know i tell you one thing. Its always in my mind. When. You stick your member whenever you are down. No camorra down. How many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. People will literally take with the hate from their hearts and jad respect you for the human mean but i was very very wrong. And this is a very. Big talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see we have gone back. And paid to still growing. More than i ever would. So you go warning you but. In a way very disappointed to know world in feeling goes a dissing way. Here speaking up is not enough. Ill start out a life sentence. 17 with a life. Was. A mature prison. I was not a humble person. Process. A lot of my life not really. Contributing much. Carnegies. I just really didnt have any use for anything positive i just know im going to be a prison guy. Is for sure. You never know who youre going to be is going to change your line. Would shape or form youre going to come here. And. My name will see what i mean for me. I am all to yourself. And i mean in a program in all the kansas presence called reaching out from within. The national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. On our program if you attend between 16 more meetings at me and said little more than a year. It drops to 8 percent. There are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern progress the optimist creed we finish with every night and through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if we just believe that things are going to be all right that. Thats a big majority of things being all right. So here i am having coffee and. Reading a newspaper about the closing of a Shopping Center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her youve lost so many things in your life youve had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. And she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimists creed and when i come in every morning thats the 1st thing that ive kept and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the up to his creed i have to bring them together. We go to. St. No shots. Actually. Just. Switch your thirst for action. 54 jets and more than 1300 military personnel are headed to heal some air force base in alaska where is that to say come on ill show you whats the reason for any type of enhanced u. S. Military presence in this area russia. What is it suddenly about the South China Sea that makes it so that it 11000000000 barrels of oil. Take a look at this map who really owns what kind of says no it belongs to us india says no we claim that that belongs to us both of these countries have Nuclear Weapons capabilities there is reason for concern so thats why were going to drill down on the story for you today right here on the news with rick sanchez where you know as we always like to say we do believe by golly its time to do news again. Then you can now its was it really like to be in hell. Because you would never believe it but its a human can do to as. When they get out. Was working in to field one date and cant come said with. The s. S. Will are spreading the s. S. As a fairy tale eyes are and i can tell you based spreading those you know with their so i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could im a tortilla it couldnt bore completely and this was very difficult on me until today i still live with this saved me a kick in a. Pity party use. To exterminate through a race. Maybe that injury was when he was beating me up by remaking it and the now i can make it i can make it out. So you gotta remember to look at these numbers on my server they told a number are. There when i seen. It made me say yeah. I never knew who did not see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to judge you how you look or you know what is your religion but as a person what a person you. Experience is everything. Only you takes people whove been through something to reach people who who are going through something. I mean is some people who go out and do crazy things hurt others because theyre hard and they dont think things will get better for. And when you say oh. And you look at her as you see. Things are good for her now them i gave you the courage to say you know. Im not going to what i was thinking about i dont. Now if i. Forgiveness. Forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are so rude there seems forgiveness what i see in people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile theyre burned i would say the people who passed about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be picked. To put to loath in your heart. You become like a different person i see the parole board in the 6 months or so. Hopefully ill be. You know try to be something. Every time thats what i had around. I hope that all of you in time will be in freedom but in the freedom never to come back to displace even like i say still now the war started although i did mention to you. Theres. A way thank you so wonderful to those due to not only me but a lot of these guys in here that youve given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me want. To get out of here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really. Seriously the way. You make out with. Me. When i get out. Im sorry you know what. Makes this so he can this in and hopefully be bless. Heard screams. Straight up because i believe he needs dead obviating course were 33 years and nothing. Compared to that at all is what your mother both are airstream are right it would kill me just mom of the bride was here. Theres no regard to feel. Shes still alive to offer higher. Or even the Syrian Military or the. First. Place there to come back in. The day. Of your life or to your notes you know that. If i might make it. Through all the strong things dont come. With us you can be very small where the extremes. In the winter of 1944 my mom was forced on a desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills in debt. And this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s. S. Guard on her last day of captivity. Theyre relating to it and theyre thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation now and its an obligation that. Im glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. I really feel privileged. That i can do this you know i mean to me. And it means to me there and i wish that my father. I wish that he. Had enough. When he was. If. You and i are speaking on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in Bergen Belsen so it was a very said it was a happy day. To. People because here the prisoners could hear him hell be vibrating here. Coming closer and closer they knew this was liberation. Of course they were starving. For my mother was working. There were still a couple of guards that were. In the guards trying to stop them as. The bullets came in right here and send them into my house and it came through. From. And then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. Was the most serious. And at the moment when the bullet came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blog start coming. So this was a terrible experience just to see david you. Made it. She said 5 years. Off the spill. Is writing. It. Literally. Any era when its. Coming theyre telling their friends about. It. So you know obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks people they say they want to do something about it. And i thought that it was important that i actually did something instead of just talking. So my name is caroline kennedy. In the city and i just graduated from high school. So i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story at least changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. With her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. Thats really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has the power to impact one person and its a huge chain reaction. I mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of you now in so maybe coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. Humanity is like to make your children you know when that should remain. Wrong since you say stay in her corner in the way its an experience we have now stay inside corner and sing about what you have to. During the vietnam war u. S. Forces also bomb to neighboring laos it was a secret war. And for years the American People did not know. Until now so my skin is officially mouse heavily back country per capita all Human History millions of unexploded bombs still in danger lives in this Small Agricultural country. And i only have one and cannot. Even today kids in laos full victims of bombs dropped decades ago is the us making amends for that tragedy in laos what help do the people need in that little land of mine. Join me every thursday on the alex salmond show and ill be speaking to us of the world of politics or business im show business ill see you then. Have. The us quit said another major arms control treaty open skies was set up primarily to avoid conflict between washington and moscow with this weeks announcement sending shock waves around the world and make concerns of rising global instability. Ending search agreements without any date to replace them could. Destabilizing activities such as a dangerous new arms race leading to a possible miscalculation. The prospect of a new cold war rooms on the horizon those washington accuses beijing of sinking a confrontation in a scathing new policy paper that also moves the cut off Chinese Companies from the u. S. Stock market