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I was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to escape. He was beating me pretties boots he was wearing heavy boots. And yours beating me up from top to bottom when they left i was all bloody blood was gone gushing from all over i really dont know how i mean this is was my. Beating. And the girls couldnt believe it and. People dont know when they look at you and theyre really left you its left a scar a better. You never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. You know when the wish for any bad to to understand whats happening you dont know what way. And you are there. And its takes a long time until you get out of it. And this is talking about. It. But. You go on. And. I felt every moment missing my mum. First she would be going to. How happy she would be and then leading me and what do. Do i was just like helpless i dont know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. Its cannot be described if theyre real mosers love and i missed it. I know its hard for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. I really tried my best to protect them and. I kept a lot of things away there are some things that i i didnt want them to know. When the time already came when they so might not and they would as we must know what is the you can imagine and theyre too warm and what can you tell it. You know used to say well they put this number because you get lost found me go find your mama and thats it enclosed. As older i got. And i looked back. And it is between the lines. That they really felt it. So this is something id completely forgotten about as an anthology of poems by children of Holocaust Survivors and i remembered having a phone published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called sonia at 32. I dont remember this poem at all that ill read it for you and i havent seen it in like a long time. Sonia 32 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. Dark clouds dark cauliflower fests i climb the cherry tree for her this year. And carry a 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she owns at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a Long Distance about the. This and that about the little man who is her son little son. Who is her husband all for an overseas sings the song. We want to. Ringback know you are now here you are. Now your hair looks. And im looking. Now what is going on. Do you gentlemen nation appear to. Pronounce the day you know it said do or say or madam please allow this letter to senator i was forming. Oh you leave your installation. If you have any. Children to contact me. It was really shocking point to me. And i have to prepare myself you dont have to close it. But now well this is what i was saying to myself. Whats happening now i have to change gears to. It larry was. Horrible james that i cannot believe myself sometimes when i close my eyes how is your wires. You know i tell you well. Its always in my mind. When when i. Remember whenever you. Look down youll be on top. How many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even counting you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took a it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. People will literally take the hate from their hearts and respect you for speaking with me but i was very very wrong. And this is very difficult. To talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see we have gone back. And made to still growing. More than i would. So you go warney youre. In a way very disappointed to know world him feeling goes a dissing way. Here speaking up is not enough. No its the day where the life. Was. A mature prison. And i was not a humble person. Again. I mean i spent a lot of my life not really. Contributing much other than. Carnegie. I just really didnt have any use for anything positive i just thought you know im going to be a prison guy. Is for sure of your. Songs honestly never know who you are going to be is going to change your life. Would shape or form youre going to come here. My name will see what i do for me. I am to yourself. And i mean in a program and all the kansas presence called reaching out from within and. The national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. Our program if you attend between 60 or more needs that means a little more than a year. It drops to 8. Percent. There are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are a very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern cross the optimist creed we finish with every night and through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if you just believe that things are going to be all right that. Thats a big majority of things being all right. So here i am having coffee and reading a newspaper about the closing of a Shopping Center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her youve lost so many things in your life youve had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. And she said if you look up on the wall so well see the optimists creed and when i come in every morning thats the 1st thing that ive kept and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the optimists creed i have to bring them together. What holds. Me to. 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Good food descriptions sound up a tasing even for the owners so how to choose the pet Food Industry is telling us what to feed our pets really more based on what they want to sell us than was necessarily good for the pet turns out that food may not be as healthy as people believe and we have animals that have you know diabetes in arthritis they have auto immune disorders allergies we are actually creating these problems is a huge epidemic of problems all of them i believe can be linked to very simple problem of diet and some dog owners so heartbreaking stories about their pets less treats the larger corporations are not very interested in proving or disproving the value of their food because theyre already making a 1000000000. 00 on it and theres no reason to do that research. American know auschwitz was really like to be in the hell. Those who would never believe that what a human can go to as a. One day that i was working in the fields on a date and cant come said with. The ashes were spreading the s. S. As a fairy tale eyes are and i can tell you based spreading those you know with their so i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could of my tortilla it couldnt bore completely and this was very difficult on me until today i still live with this saved me a kick in the. Pinny parties. To exterminate through a race. Maybe that injury was when he was beating me up by her making me a mole now i can make it i can make it out. So you gotta remember to look at these numbers on my server see the number are. There when i seen. It made me say yeah. I never knew who did not see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to judge you how you look or you know what is your religion but as a person what a person your. Experience is everything. Only takes people whove been through something to reach people who who are going through something. 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How do you find forgiveness to form given this is a very important act in normal lights but i came to conclusion myself there are so bored there seem forgiveness want i have c n people dying hanging kim born inc still do that sometimes from the pile will their boor and i would say the people who test about this burnt i cannot even begin to toe with you who am i to say that i forgive if know this crash do comes from a higher place for a lead different place about forgiveness should to be pricked is tied to a poor do loath in your how are tied to help you become like a diffidence person i see the parole board in the halls 6 months or so hopefully ill be to know treme you something and they returned its of the that are out i hope its all of view in time well be in freedumb about to enough pretty dont never to come back to displace even like i say to still mad to war stay you all dead of mention to you theres a worry thank you so wonderful called your the and you goes do you do tourist not only me but love these guys and hear it youve given me more strength to after 32 years being your to makes me very spill action to get out here so i push each domain your thank you im a really really lake to their various nobody way with if you may go yourself when i get out on the farm saw you know what. Makes the oh so he can this in and hopefully be bless well i. Heard screams. Straight up because i believe hes dead bob been on course for 32 years and nothing can be compared to that at all is watching your mother both her airstream are right it would kill me in just a moment the pride was near. Theres no regard to feel. Shes still alive to offer higher. Or even a serious. Person is. Truly place there you come back into the day your. Words are you are in your notes you know that. If i might make it. Through all the strong things dont go. Yes you can be very small where the extremes. In the winter of 1944 my mom was forced on a desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills in debt. And this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s. S. Guard on her last day of captivity. Theyre relating to it and theyre thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation now. Its an obligation that. Had to do. And honestly i feel privileged. I really feel privileged to have. And i can do this you know i mean to me. And it means to me there and i wish that my father. I wish that he. Had enough. When he was. You. You and i are speaking on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in Bergen Belsen so it was a very said it was a happy day. To. People could hear the prisoners could hear him feel that vibrating here. Coming closer and closer they knew this liberation. So of course they were starving. For my mother was working. There were still a couple of guards around in the guards trying to stop them as. The bullets came and it sent them into my house and it came true. And then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. I was the most serious. At the moment when the bullets came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blog start coming. So this was a terrible experience just to see did you. Made it. She survived years. Off the spill. Driving. It in. Literally. Any era when its. Coming theyre telling their friends about. So you know obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks people they say they want to do something about it. And i thought that it was important that i actually didnt think instead of just talking. So my name is caroline kennedy. Is a city and i just graduated from high school. So i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story at least changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. With her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. Thats really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has a power to impact one person and its a huge chain reaction. I mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of you now in so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. 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