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People dont know when they look at you and theyre really left you its left a scar a better. You never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. Now when the wish for anybody to to understand whats happening you dont know what way. And you are there. And its takes a long time until you get out of it. And this is talking about. It. But. You go on. And. I felt every moment missing my mother. First she would be going to. How happy she would be and then leading me in the what do. Do i was just like helpless i dont know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. Its cannot be described the real mothers love and i missed it. I know its hard for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. I really tried my best to protect them and. I kept a lot of things away theres something say i didnt want them to know. When the time already came when they so might not and they would as we must know what does these you can imagine and theyre too warm and what can you tell it. You know used to say well they put this number because youve got you at last found me go find your mamma and thats it enclosed. As older i got. And i looked back. And it is between the lines. That they really held it. So this is something id completely forgotten about samantha ology poems by children of Holocaust Survivors and i remembered having a phone published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called sonia at 32. I dont remember this poem at all that ill read it for you. I havent seen it in like a long time. Sonia 32 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. Dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the cherry tree for her this year. And carry 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she owns at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a Long Distance about the. And that about the little man who is her son little son. Who is her husband all for an overseas sings the song. We want to. Know you are now here you are. Now your hair looks. And looking great. Now what is going on. I mean to read it to you jeremy nation open up your fancy pronounce it a you know it says do sarah or madam please allow this lead to. Form. Of your lease cancellation. If you have any questions. Or contact me. It was really a shocking point for me. And i have to prepare myself you dont have to close it down to. About now well this is what i was saying to me said they saw me at whats happening now i have to change gears to. Keep larry was to arrange the horrible things that i cannot believe myself sometimes when a close. How is your wage. You know i tell you one thing. Its always in my mind. When. You see. And remember whenever you doll. Moredock youll be on. How many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. People will literally take with the hate from their hearts and jad respects you for a human being but i was very very wrong. And this is very. Good to talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see were going back towards the hate to still growing. More than i ever would. So you go warning you but. In a way very disappointed to know world in feeling goes a dissing way. Here speaking up is not enough. 17 with a life of. Ours. In which sure. I was not a humble person. Not of my life not really. Contributing much on the. Carnegie. I just really didnt have any use for anything positive i just im with me a present guy. Is for sure in your. Songs you never know who youre going to be is going to change your line. Would shape or form youre going to come here. And. My name will see what i mean for all. I am all to yourself. And i mean in a program and all that kansas presence called reaching out from within and. The national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. Our program if you attend between 16 more meetings at me and said little more than a year. It drops to 8 percent. There are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern cross the optimist creed we finish with every night through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if you just believe that things are going to be all right that. Thats a big majority of things being all right. So here i am having coffee and reading a newspaper about the closing of a Shopping Center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her youve lost so many things in your life youve had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. And she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimists creed and when i come in every morning thats the 1st thing that i care and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the have to miscreate i have to bring them together. Just one magic bullet you could actually come up with some of the top of these baby talk about ways we get access to capital and capitalism cavils important so we could actually have programs that actually help folks who want to do that but when you give everybody a 1000. 00 im a poor person im going to consume that and if youre rich youre going to invest that equity the wealth the spirit is going to grow because youre not using your money to do it can so youre literally buying more crazy things and then my landlord knowing that i got a 1000. 00 and you just go raise my rig so then you get your flesh and go all in their. Descriptions sound up to tasing even for the owners so how to choose just cat Food Industry is telling us what to feed our pets really more based on what they want to sell us than was necessarily good for the pet turns out picks food may not be as healthy as people believe we have animals that have you know diabetes in arthritis they have auto immune disorders allergies we are actually creating these problems its a huge epidemic of problems all of them i believe can be linked to fairy simple problem of diet and some dog owners so heartbreaking stories about their pets less treats the larger corporations are not very interested in proving or disproving the value of their food because theyre already making it a 1000000000. 00 on it and theres no reason to do that research. In. America now auschwitz was really like to be inhaled. Because he would never believe it wasnt a human can do to as it. One day that i was working in to field one date and cant come said with. The ashes were spreading the ashes as a fairy tale eyes are and i cant tell you based spreading those you know with their so i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could of my toria it couldnt bore completely and this was very difficult to me until today i still live with this saved me a kick in the. Pity parties. To exterminate through race. Maybe that injury was when he was beating me up by remaking it and more now i can make it i can make it out. So you gotta remember to look at these numbers on my server see the total number are. There when i seen. It made me say yeah. I never knew who did not see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to judge you how you look or you know what is your religion but as a person what a person your. Experience is everything. I me you takes people who have been through something to reach people who who are going through something. I mean as some people who go on do crazy things hurt others because theyre hard and they dont think they will get better for. In what you say oh. You look at her as you see. Things are good for her now them i gave you the courage to say you know. Im not going to what i was thinking about i dont. How do you find forgiveness. Forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are so bored there seem forgiveness what i see in people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile theyre burned i would say the people who passed about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i forgive you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be practiced. Too poor to loath in your heart. You become like a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so. Hopefully ill be. You know contributed something. Every time thats what i had around. I hope that all of you in time will be in freedom but in the freedom never to come back to this place even like i say still now the war started although i did mention to you. Theres. I want to thank you so wonderful there you go you do to us not only me but a lot of these guys in here that youve given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me want to spend. To get out here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really. Know what. You make out. When i get out on the farm saw you know what. Their next meal is so he can listen and hopefully be blessed while ive. Heard this. Story. Because i believe he needs that opted in course we were 32 years and nothing can be compared with it at all is watching your mother go through an airstream or i wouldnt it would kill me in just a moment the pride was near. Theres no regard to feel. Shes still alive to offer higher. Or even a serious military. Its a personal. Truth place where you come back in. The day. Your words are you are in your notes you know that. If i might make it to. You know the strong things dont come. To us you can be very small for the extreme. You know when youre 1944 my mom was forced on a desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills in debt. And this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s. S. Guard on her last day of captivity. Theyre relating to it and theyre thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation now. Its an obligation that im glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. I really feel privileged to know. That i can do this you know i mean to me. And it means to me there and i wish that my father. I wish that he. Had enough. When he was. He. You and i are speaking on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in Bergen Belsen so it was a very said it was ahead they. Did it to. People because here the prisoners get here. Vibrating to hear tanks coming closer and closer they need this liberation. So of course they were starving. Kids area where my mother was working. There were still a couple of guards that were. In their cars trying to stop them as. The bullets came in here and it sent him into my house and it came true. And then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. I was the most serious. At the moment when the bullets came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blood to start coming. So this was a terrible experience just to see david you. Made it. She said 5 years. Off the spill. Is writing. It is. Literally. In the air when its also. Coming theyre telling their friends about. So you know obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks to people they say they want to do something about it and they want to make it she. Felt that it was important that i actually didnt think instead of just talking. So my name is caroline kennedy. Is a city and i just graduated from high school. So i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story to lead changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. With her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. Thats really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has a power to impact one person and its a huge chain reaction. I mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of us now and so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. Americas built a prison called the world and its the prison is the run it runs the prison and the cost of building that prison is 0 because its all based on everyone in the world is still willing to accept dollars trade in dollars clear through the new york fed and worship the u. S. Dollar wherever you go youll find a. T. M. s in countries where its the local currency and dollars dollar is god no matter what religion you say you are around the world the fact is you pray to the u. S. Dollar every day. The news in my. Vows of a time about. The senses of about. One with more than the side of the. Scene the guy doing to him but im before. Him by the. Body im not move on. The pentagon reacts to accusations that washington has routinely aligned about americas longest war made by the top u. S. Official overseeing afghanistans reconstruction. Program or alexander arrested in greece on washingtons request writes a plea for help saying he has been tortured and refused the most basic rights. In dramatic scenes the french president is rushed out of a persecutor under a hail of boos as furious protesters chanting resign try to confront him. And russia marks 77 years since the breaking of the siege of leningrad one of world