A part of it but when i 1st went on stage i thought very scared. My heart was pounding the 1st time i performed on the variance the stage. Was. Ok everyone has devoted. Her her her her. Her. Initial a lot of names on the last little and then liz great you know i get shorter for instance if they put on less or 3 columns of names youll see about 10 people at last left on their way they act. Like that sometimes it hurts when you really want to like we have bigger girls who are never chosen for any parts and they usually get upset when the lists are put up they think i hope ill be there but they arent the thing is theyre not very good candidates to begin with. Though. Theres a lot you still alive billy none of us here cant. Training here is a very stressful experience exams and rehearsals are a never ending process evaluations are stressful as well the child is nervous because she doesnt know if her performance is good enough to be accepted if shes turned down his selfesteem suffers you have to be very strong mentally and physically to face up to the challenge if youre turned down you dont need to give up. And everything. To. Top the normal there are many up and coming dances in the theater. Everybody is given the opportunity to dance. But sometimes some of them have plenty of work. For some people like me there were periods where i had nothing to day until recently. Thank you luckily im much busier this season. After her singing and performing some of the parts im completely exhausted nobody envious me because they know its hard. To see that youre almost ready to die. When you leave the court about to do so you feel very lonely because some of your friends have turned away from me but thats the sort of situation the experienced during the 1st year of my 4th season but now everybody has come around the thought that thomas a dancer after all. A little closer to it should be no distance between you take a step towards her and make sure her chest faces this way right up to her. Delicately. You. Would almost very often oksana finds herself at the center of some gossip to work with but here but this is only natural because when she suddenly appears in a solo part after dancing in the corridor ballet for a long time with nobody well everybody starts whispering about her. I think all those rumors are started by many other dancers wanting to take her place. But. The guys are far easier to deal with in general they are better at agreeing on things and that just clearing the air. Of reason ive done says a single minded people they devote their lives to one cause to work and to. Their audience should only see the results of their labor up there on the stage illuminated by the spotlight. Which sometimes theyll spend months or maybe years training just to be able to done some beautiful variation that lasts maybe a couple of minutes. At the end of the day the ballet dancer is totally played out but so much so that he looks more dead than alive and its no wonder people say that if a ballet dancer doesnt feel pain when he gets up. And means hes more or less dead. Goods goods you want to do a one second youre obviously standing way too close far far too close shes doing the pacu and youll ever hear of course you can catch it here but she ends up over there. My boyfriend is a silent ballet dancer. So you could say we spend all of our time together but it was no rivalry we stimulate each other to improve our performance what they say stuff like why did you let go of it and then he says why did you dive into a stretch i cant. Bring all this criticism to one another does help us. I think it sets him when i do it now hes going to take away. Your brain is always about work it never takes a rest we argue a lot because we do need to relax to forget all about our work and switch to other activities but that never happens for instance i might have to dance a new ballets while theres nothing for me to do. And i find it hard to dance on this stage its true that i always get nervous dancing on other stages because i feel responsible for what im doing. But this stage squeezes a good deal of moral and physical strength out of me i dont know why perhaps theres something in its history traditions or the audience that makes performing here is so difficult. Distance was. Good evening ladies and gentlemen tonights performance will begin in 20 minutes. Because what you see on stage looks gloriously beautiful and everything seems as it should be but i know its the result of very hard work and if someone were to ask me whether id like to go through all of that again with the knowledge i have now id think twice before answering the question. If you. Match geysers financial Survival Guide liquid assets not those that you can convert into gas quite easily. To keep in mind though as if im in the place to watch guys are bored. Thousands of american men and women choose to serve in the countrys military decision little shattered lives every function to a complete. Whole being struck in here you know all the shots what they kill me and i see how destroyed my life any screamed at me and he made me come in and he graham my arm and he write me with his birth year if you take into account that women dont report because. 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Question. 2 or 3 of us share a room christina and i come from different cities and the other girls from St Petersburg we usually get up at 730 some of us like to get up early or classes begin at 920 sometimes we have 78 or even 9 lessons lasting until 5 30 pm. Sometimes we have rehearsals after that then we do our homework so some of us come here to strach others to play the piano. And the devil before when i was at home i used to have about half an hour to watch t. V. Or simply relax but not now i havent watched t. V. For more than a month maybe even 2 and a half. Rented a room with a girl during the 1st year. During the 1st season i was lucky to get a room all to myself even though you can get 2 people in. 2 people live together in a room like this which. I druther stay away from the still metry. Some buildings in some petersburg termit and unpleasant energy. I think this is one such building. Of the day your vehicle after i came to perth to try to and to Ballet School 3 girls out of 8 who were admitted. I was the only one. To finish that school. Was a teacher shows to me saying lose weight it is what it is true that keeping in shape is quite a challenge i try not to eat anything before going to bed but when i come home after a performance i really want to eat which is all i can afford is a glass of yogurt the for going to. Is a big problem for us back home you can eat whatever you want but here you have to be thin sometimes its hard to hold back yassir allowed to eat more or less what you like but only a small portion of the time and if you overdo it you have to exercise i know that sugar and up in the thighs and if you become too fat they kick you out. Its hard for putting him out because everybody is eating fruit and chocolates and drinking juice in front of her she isnt allowed to eat those things its clear that shes still a kid and wants everything but shes not allowed to. Sell what annoys me most of all is that my teacher charles me that i do very well but then she takes home some marks because she says i havent got the right figure. Dont cross your feet and dont drag them like that point your toes are not jumping at old. Junk theyre. Junk. But now the last you managed to push every other time you were going like this you need to go up. Tell him to children are few and far between thats why we have to make the others do things to the best of their ability we want them to be up to the mark so that Ballet Companies get good dances after graduation fortunately no style that is overlooked in the academy corridors we make them sweat here. But european history and i have supported diana since she was around 34. 00 and. Ive trained her throughout the years that she has been here. Here regrettably i dont have much opportunity for that now with such a talented student is a great joy for the teacher. Kind of the local human genome really well every year she progress. We have predicted should get to a she is now you know it no no i really dont think sarah frankly she wasnt doing very well at the time but she had no qualms about it when am i supposed to do she would show i work on the steps ok thats exactly what im going to do she just did it and made progress. Just to be delisted if you turned down an offer to done so because you have an injury of some things they want to make that offer again because you end up being blacklisted it was to do with them good. Now strained tendon but i keep on working anyway. Because i realized that if i take a break i wont catch a new blue one time i had to ligaments of course i didnt want the shame of refusing the patents one like anyway i need the injury would still somehow interfere with my dancing regardless. But soon i changed my mind afterwards i can do it i can do it i said its and thats why i got laid so were. You know one time oksana was told to prepare 7 numbers in a short period of time before they were totally different routines she rehearsed them for 4 or 5 hours a day. Then she woke up in the morning and saw that her knee had completely swollen up. So i took all those painkillers and i still done. Just 2nd oh how excited are you going to show up at tomorrows rehearsal wasnt it cancelled. Please come. Ok i will. Think what it seems no one wants to go tomorrow i was meant to be the one day off into wakes. And now is his and whats it worth while. Cos im going to have children. Family is worse i treasure most of all. Everybody says that. She says that because its not on her mind right now but if she has to choose between being a prima ballerina and having a family. But shell settle for the former as for me i have the same approach. Work will come 1st as long as the outlook is good. I know that if i have a child i wont be able to devote myself completely to the profession i keep trying to convince myself that children can wait but i think about it all the time the 10 truth i mean. It never occurred to me that what im doing might be seen as a desire to build a career you know i have chosen an artistic path of my own my accomplishments are the result of my inner development they give me strength of their perception of life and its purpose i take an earnest view of my development i want to enjoy the process and make sure that this period of my life lasts for as long as it can i realize that a child would turn my life upside down. Ok whats this or that voice everyone got sick with and im very insecure i used to dream of being a prima ballerina so i would even the appearance solo part was that they played with the idea of allowing me to dance a really Important Role but i had a problem with my knee at the time perhaps its for the best because otherwise i might have never become a teacher. And the 2nd part of life is no less interesting than the 1st one in a different way yes but still. Shoulder blades one to the arm comes back up 3 floor and legs stretching out before they head 123. And 4. On. That on. That. Help me get admitted to the school and become a ballet dancer i earned a reputation because of her the she was the 1st to read something in my eyes that prompted her to look after me she has 4 daughters of her own and i guess you can call me her. Oh. Yeah now ive got 5 nice grandchildren all i can say about them is that theyre simply fantastic. I only had daughters. But now i have 3 grandsons and 2 granddaughters. That were. Watching diana on strange or bring her to sing with her took a good deal of my time and probably more than i could have spent with my daughter lisa but she never complained she probably understood what kind of done sedan i was. And lisa was following her own fan. Or she gave birth to a child recently. She might dance in mind of pads just to breathe the atmosphere of dance she doesnt aspire for more because shes not a lead ballerina about the world of the dancers doing sello pad so prima ballerina is find it very difficult to write an end to that really is. That they want more of the same which is her. Dreams which you still like a grown up artist performing on the big stage you have a golden crown and a pink tutu thats you have everything. And i am lucky because there are many time to incapable dances at the main street there is a certain some give up too early and stop short in the development and then some and just not given a chance to meet you and then the sometimes you see other dancers that us and you think you well i wish i could dance that well. With. I am. Israels parliamentary elections to begin ended in deadlock feel after it is divided divided on the political right sitting Prime MinisterBenjamin Netanyahu says its either my right we block or a dangerous back government how does this kind of rhetoric bode for the palestinians middle east ability. That hes. Going to do. With bullets of. Me shes on the. Spot will not keep down this time i dont. Need to promote. 50. Roubles for the way. The process of constructing this was to him as a body degradable scaffold. Which is porous and this is inserted beneath the skin when the skin the suction over the scaffold over a period of a. 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