Its some sort of physical connection. The physical connection. It might not have a whole garter kiss, but at least youve got something to talk to in the halls somewhere else. These are the survivors of a scandal that is still rocking ireland born and catholic institutions and still trying to discover their identity and trace their birth parents the the seemingly tranquil town of tomb and western ireland. A place that and a car again, just cant seem to forget. This was once the site of a mother in baby home run by catholic nuns, up to 1961. And married women were sent here to give birth. The remains of 796 infants lie here. This is the, the list of the children who died in the home. Here, john does mantell and he died 15 months. John, her older brother was born and apparently died here. And then there is william. What happened to and his brothers there was no official grave for decades, the nuns didnt just hush off the high rate of Child Mortality in the home. They also humiliated and neglected even the very youngest of children. And a still doesnt know what really happened to her brother is here. Its a very strange position to be in because i have one brother here and he has a death search. So im not blue, but hes here. I have another brother whos dead. It doesnt have a death certificate, no reason for that. And im also led to believe hes here for the yes, hes not on the names of the 796. This, these 3 carmel, larkin, walter, frances, and p j have, or t survived the home, into the full deal for hello, hello. Hello, walter, how are you . Im with there. I just came in to add a quarter again, met them 8 years ago, shortly after the scandal made international headlines. Oh, i was looking at impairments constant. They could be my brothers because the age profile for see if you are feeling in from a parents. I knew nothing about my mothers thing. Somebody didnt tell me before i should have a p. J. Have her to spend almost 7 years in st. Marys mother and baby home. Then he was put in foster care. Most of the other survivors were given up for adoption. So the kid on the off to so i was one of the lucky ones. I was lucky, i probably would use board and maybe has the baby and thats when they survived. Its a frightening place. Its beside the said place because i could be in here is when this, what frightens me, what was going on in to was being practiced systematically throughout ireland. Those were the findings of a report published by the Irish Government in 2021 and investigation into the countries 14 largest homes up to 1998. Revealed that 56000 women had had their newborns taken away from them and released for adoption. In the ultra conservative Catholic Ireland of the time getting pregnant out of wedlock was seen as a sin and Castle Pollard. There was also a catholic mother in baby home. The poll redmond was born here in 1964. The building is long empty. But the home dominates his thoughts. He wants to understand what happened to him here. That was 58 years ago at the moment saw it brings box a lot of memories because this is where i last saw my motor for the last time ive never seen. Or since the more than 4500 children were born in the home in castle college, a catholic quarter of nuns ran the institution from 1935 to 1971. Paul redmonds Research Shows that the nuns pressured the mothers into signing adoption papers for their children. Paul was separated from his mother shortly after his birth, and he was adopted when he was just 17 days old. Its a funny, mixed emotions going back here because its where i live. Start of my life color gone and one of 2 directions. One was to stay with us from the motor total was to be adult. This saw this place is like im a rail junction with 2 rooms or trucks and the old right golf. The more it was all my mind play was i gave in the way what happened is there something wrong with me . He now knows that his birth mother is called adeline. She was 20 years old and, and married at the time, her parents paid the order 100. 00 irish pounds to make the baby disappear. Of the if you are pregnant, denied, then you were married. Then you are just a horrible sooner, the penitent, as they would do anything they called to just polish you for loss. So its important that we remember all these things and bear with this and make sure to future generations selling for gas poll. Redmond has set up a Self Help Group to make sure that doesnt happen. Today he is arranged to meet others like himself on the side of the former home. Yeah. Yeah. Ok for this you guys know re, you get to see you guys are saving us. My whole wants to give others the opportunity to confront their past. Almost all the adopted children are trying to trace their routes. Many do not know to this day who their mother was missing documents and the non stony silence also dogged lawrence cloaks attempts to traces past. Like when i started looking and i got in touch with the nuns and they said its very difficult. Go back and look for your mother. Like because she could be anywhere in the world. Thats gonna cost money. Because we lawrence received this letter from the religious order back then paul reads it out to the group. This is time consuming and called the expense of sell. If you want us to go ahead, we would need help in the area as we are in voluntary society. Well, thats the strait of lloyd, and were not voluntary safe of hearts adoption, sorry, the sauce was a professional and registered agency changing baby, and they go pick up money from the government to look after. For 2 years, the nuns kept demanding money from lawrence and kept finding him off from the nuns, only revealed his mothers name when he threatened to stop the payments. And when i was adopted, but i was looking to come back and find out. Yeah. And the 191991 race, i found a lot about 2025 years and i finally found another 10 years after that was sent along back for a long time, the survivors were unaware of the scale of this inhumane system. Paul found out that almost one in 10 babies born in Castle Pollard did not survive. Ready literally right between a need are fee stores of those 245. 00 formal burials and the 150. 00 still by itself is about 400. 00 pages. Very dear paul has written a book about ireland mother in baby homes so so being adults, digital slowly, 100 percent, these which are toppling families, have the adults for the 5th, which are the actual 5 the either because theyre gone. So with the volume is be easy to over, they do sort of feel a sense of kinship, how we all call one another, a creative mace. And the group is being a huge benefit for everybody. And thats why people talk about the last about how has changed our lives and made them feel less lonely and give them the best sense of belonging to the survivors for yesterdays unwanted children. The, the mother in baby home in june was torn down in 1972. Catherine corliss has a scale model of the building in her living room. The amateur historian brought the nuns, appalling abuse to light. She discovered that the babys bodies had been disposed of in a disused Sewage Treatment system under ground. She had uncovered one of the biggest scandals in irelands history. Or when catherine confronted the authorities with what she has discovered, the stone walls, nobody wants to hire bosses that fight everything to come out against me even to people. Perfect treasures, of course, tried to stop me. A call recalled to counsel did everything in their power to stuff me because they knew what happened at their response, but so they did their best to cover up while homes like whom were run by catholic nuns, regional authorities were generally responsible for their supervision. One woman against the church and the state assisted in her research by her husband, aiden irish media 1st reported on the scandal in 2014. Catherine began receiving threats and that is still going on to this day. But she refused to be intimidated. Interviews, i would probably golf some and toddler say that i had to do this. And especially if, when nobody was listening or want to listen is this is if i couldnt get the baby so they become read babies to me. And just because the really just the most the work order in the park and, and i put enough understand toiletries, it hasnt been brought into the water could not be in parkins. They wouldnt give the medicine, they wouldnt call the doctor and they just let them die. I physical and to the death certificate in particular, continue to haunt catherine from records of other mother and baby homes spacious. Thats the thats for, for suffice. The mother will decode off the she gave birth of the baby died and instead of this faith, it may have been given to a couple from america or are elsewhere as quite possible. Thats a lot of the babies havent died at all. So this term provide me the best or, or you think youre going with in the course of her research, catherine has made many of the survivors. Her revelations have changed the lives of p. J, have her tea and Carmel Larkin feelers out there. Shes returned a piece of their identity to them and america it is for him. Now hes a carpenter. Thats where you type in bar and carmen here, the new jersey, youre now back here that that was a bit further say. And then yeah, your poor motor then after giving birth to the left over here, she was given 7 days rest with the baby. The notes then, but the 7 days. So just and that was, it is open and do all the heavy work thats with populations. Lots of some scrubbing floors student over time. Yeah. Birth certificates, adoption papers, letters for decades. The nuns and the adoption authorities kept all these documents under lock and key. So everybody was afraid of the police, afraid of the religion, afraid of everything, day to control on everything completely and the effect in that they didnt want us to do one thing and just hide over thing. It was another way of torching you. There was no investigation as to who did all of this damage while you with them babies pushing to adopt a lot of times you couldnt take the knowns. Im anyways, cause they have mess up amount of money. The government even were afraid to confront the known sort of church. They could get a top dollar to start or celeste, or in the world, not in europe. So how could you, would you compete that you couldnt when, as no one was held responsible for the dead babies of choose the order of nuns that ran home only apologize in 2021. When the government published its report and that report came too late for many of those affected who doubts whether the state is really interested in uncovering the truths. Pga haggerty is now 71. He lives just a few kilometers from to a small farm. Peach. It was just under 7 when he was fostered with the stigma of being illegitimate. Stayed with him his entire life. So when they came to my teams as the ones ive got very difficult for me, then thats when i got the abuse from people that found out that i was bored. Notices outside of wedlock, which is a big market st. Evaluate safe and just reject you back to you and just called your names for no, actually a reason i couldnt understand why an old thats affected me growing up at the pension the then i went to a river to do away with myself because i couldnt take any more life life and i still have desk insight me all the time. Like, you know, i really do. The Irish Government has announced compensation plans, but only those people who spent at least 6 months in a mother and baby home will be eligible p j. However, t is set to receive 40000. 00 zeros. Were going to get some peanuts, were going to give them a fraction. When you thing like it goes 7 years take note of my life. Locked up what i caught up for the nursing home, i presume, like honest something youve taken over my life. I dont know anything about just and you must have taken away from you. Thats what christ. In his early twenties, pj, i started looking for his birth mother. He asked neighbors and other locals and discovered that his mother was living in london. At 1st, they exchanged letters. Then she agreed to meet him. From his mother, p. J discovered that she had never wanted to get him away. For 5 years, she had knocked at the door of the home every day. But the nuns turned her away. She looked for me, she wants to do everything for me, but she was restricted. She told me, i was delighted to know that she didnt leave me there because she didnt like me or she didnt want me. Which was nice to know that she did want to make sure did over time to get me out. And that was lovely like, you know, it cleaned it took a lot of your, you know, that your friends were hillman, he over the part of the human race and over thing like, you know, you know, 2000 a month, the image and more that i need to talk to and i think so it went to northwest north of the in dublin and a cork in search goes on. She still doesnt know for sure what happened to her 2 brothers. She collects everything connected to the mother in baby homes, birth and death certificate. Baptism certificates and investigation reports for search has become central to her life. And i grew up as an only child. She only discovered by chance that she had siblings after her mothers death. Its like somebody has given you a stage signs that a big wooden cudgels are a big wrecking ball. It takes a lot of time to process it. My mother never had told me anything about her time in gym. Home. People didnt discuss it because in a lot of case scenario, and this was there was a lot of shame attached being in a home. And i came across a medical report in documents held by the adoption authorities. An entry about her brother john read. He was a miserable, emaciated child with a very anxious appetite and no control over bodily functions. What happened to discharge from birth to 12 months that he ends up in this condition . No control over bundling functions. If john is dead, i contend he died and id like to him on nutrition. In 2014 and i contacted the police. Johns cause of death is under investigation. For brother, william is officially classed as a missing person. On the outskirts of dublin, paul redmond lives with his adoptive mother. He helps look after his adoptive father, his dad is they were open about his adoption. It didnt really kind of occurred to me was adopted ment. Uncle. I was 7 or age. Im gonna have a vivid memory of being in english and then the 1st mcdonalds in ireland, which i have a lot of mirrors at the time. I dont remember seeing my whole family in the queue and looking at the mirror seemed to everybody else in the family had black hair and i had red hair. So that was one of the 1st times i kind of realize thats what it really means to be adopted. And i knew what it meant to be adopted, but that was the 1st time, but really, emotionally hit me. His adoptive parents didnt know what really went on in the mother and baby homes. So they couldnt answer pose questions. I started searching as a teenager and then i was 50. I took my bicycle, the side of things, adults. After looking up the address of to Adoption Society and the following book, i like an absolute show i have to stay or nothing on the store. And of course they just got read to me, pull treasures the result of his search. It took 25 years to track down his mother adeline. But on the telephone, she told him that she didnt want any contact. All that po has, is this letter . This letter is a personal touch. Its something she wrong with it, something she touched solace. Its some sort of physical connection to physical connection. It might not have a hold or a kiss, but at least you got something to talk to the whole world. I did find peace and bought a very strange sort of peace. I kind of became no more about the whole team. You can trace and you can search and you can do this. You can how so the government from mountains of paperwork going to the end of the day. You cannot make somebody want that relationship with you. It has to be their choice. So just like the pink floyd song to die, hows the cold calls to believe . No. Unfortunately, that is what it has to stay comfortably. Theres no more p j have or tea was at least able to meet his birth mother. I thought from that day on life once we had the ice broken and we had met, wed meet again on fox and today life doesnt work that way. It didnt go that way. Decades of separation cannot be put aside just like that. Peters mother didnt want to interfere in his life and avoided further contact. 35 years passed before the 2 of them saw each other again. His mother was 88 and no longer recognized her son. She died shortly afterwards. The only thing is i thought the reason because when i talk to northwest survivors that and if im not the mother, i dont know for them. Others even is so for me to free my mother, that was a big thing. And not knowing that then, but to be able to go to a funeral and see how be let to rest. So i can conclude said to myself, ive every 58, okay man, that ive got that much more that signal because of now p j would like to find the last piece and the person who was his biological father. He hopes a dna test will shed light on that. Catherine cordless is helping him who just was showing for issues. Its like technical if a test page of google is difficult to frontier, participate until difficult difficult, and codes the you stop talking because advise you, if dna records of even a distant relative of his fathers are held anywhere, p j will know more to the whole truth and nothing. What says catherine gets inquiries from all over the world. She looks for names and Contact Details of survivors, relatives with the help of dna test results and online databases. I faded gold. If i get answers for them, its the same thing as to beat the system. A lot of those people who are born in the home, they are not allowed to see their own records. See who their mother is. Older father is that information belongs to the fish and thats a social world. I get a good feeling. If i find something for that family, theyre so happy. Theres still a time for i have changed their life. And what more could i ask . The results from pjs dna test will take a few weeks to arrive. Paul redmond is concerned with one question above all. Why didnt his mother try to trace him . Not only the long silence of the state and the church are to blame over the years, a kind of our borrower saw the lot of the motors. Ive been told that it was a terrible more to say to reconcile our have a reunion with our child. That was drilled into them into vulgar and baby helps. I live with something that really stays with monitors. Because a more to say, it was just the worst of the worst. I mean a rags up there were bird or am. And if you come in a more to said, do to have for all the time to see it changed my perspective on my natural most are by making me realize that she was in fact that we were both victims, survivors in the way as well. In 2018 pope francis visited ireland. As a survivor, paul was invited to an audience with the pontiff. He asked the pope to set the record straight about models and we all forget all the time. Remaining single mother were told that children, that this was a multiple saying, you know, im also saying for the irish adoption agencies saw a sudden jump in the number of tracing requests after the popes announcement. Im afraid of all the teams we tea. Thats the wall of the kind of stays with me the most in some ways. I mean door motors and the top these and all corners violent. And theyd be living in shame and fee or of silence for turkey, for 25060 years old vibes of 5 lead the pope high. Besides are free of all this nonsense now, what is it the square you stuff. Unknowns around the modern a baby holds. Have essentially ignored what the pope says. They havent tasted responsibility they have and an offer to to contribute towards re dress for some i verse pauls battle continues to once the Irish Government to pay compensation to all survivors, regardless of how long they were in the homes. He plans to go to the Country Supreme Court if necessary is still waiting for answers about what really happened to her brothers john and williams. Im hoping that they do find my brother. I mean, were getting older and 67 this year. So my brothers interest subsidies, so time is running else and theres more to the glimmer of hope there. This he is and i was, i made some he may not want to know me, but i just want to say so your life you survived. You dont take me look like do i wish you a very happy days . If you dont want to know, im just please leave. Turn that letter for you. If you do want to know id be over the mount, im bringing home of introduce you to your nieces and nephews, a show you my show you where i live. Bring is the countryside show you where a mother was from, bring it to where shes buried. Lets say they knew a piece as a new content and the piece for me the, the government has now announced it will have the remains in june exhumed. Perhaps this will give an honest certainty about the fate of both of her brothers pg search also still goes on the dna test didnt provide any leads about his fathers identity. I have names being told to me like, but to really find those would be lovely. But for the survivors, you know, might have still goes out to them. The silicon model is that what theyre still looking for, their sons and daughters want to know where they are just to hold them because of the truth. 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