Everything that he knows about his roots is inside the suitcase. Paul redmond was born in an irish mother and baby home. Just a few days after his birth, he was given up for adoption. This letter is only linked to his birth mother. Ready this naturally is personal touch. Its something she wrongs its something she touched. So its, its some sort of physical connection. The physical connection. It might not have a hold or a kiss, but at least you got something to talk to about how these are the survivors of a scandal that is still rocking ireland, born and catholic institutions and still trying to discover their identity and trace their birth parents. The the seemingly tranquil town of tomb and western ireland. A place that and a car again, just cant seem to forget. This was once the sight of a mother in baby home run by catholic nuns up to 1961. And married women were sent here to give birth. The remains of 796 infants live here. This is the, the list of the children who died in the home. Here, john does mantell and died 15 months. John, her older brother was born and apparently died here. And then theres william. What happened to and his brothers there was no official grave for decades, the nuns didnt just hush off the high rate of Child Mortality in the home. They also humiliated and neglected even the very youngest of children. And a still doesnt know what really happened to her brothers here. Its a very strange position to be in because i have one brother here. I mean has a death search. So im not blue, but hes here. I have another brother whos dead. It doesnt have a death certificate, no reason for that animal select believe hes here for the yes, hes not on the names of the 796 these 3 carmel, larkin, walter, francis and p j have or t survived the home into the deal for hello, hello hello walter, how are you . Im with there. I just came in to add a quarter again met them 8 years ago, shortly after the scandal made international headlines. Oh, i was looking at impairments constant. They could be my brothers because the age pro 5 for see if you are feeling in from a parents. I knew nothing about my mothers thing. Somebody didnt tell me before we should have a p. J. Have her to spend almost 7 years in st. Marys mother in baby home. Then he was put in foster care. Most of the other survivors were given up for adoption. So the kid on the office, i was one of the lucky ones. As i was looking, i probably would use board and maybe it has to be a be in that and they survived. Its a frightening place. Its beside the said place because i could be in here is when this what frightens me. What was going on in tomb was being practiced systematically throughout ireland. Those were the findings of a report published by the Irish Government in 2021 and investigation into the countrys 14 largest homes up to 1998. Revealed that 56000 women had had their newborns taken away from them and released for adoption. The in the ultra conservative Catholic Ireland of the time getting pregnant out of wedlock was seen as a sin and Castle Pollard. There was also a catholic mother in baby home. Paul redmond was born here in 1964. The building is long empty. But the home dominates his thoughts. He wants to understand what happened to him here. That was, that was 58 years ago with them alvin saw it brings box a lot of memories because this is where i last saw my motor for the last time ive never seen. Or since the more than 4500 children were born in the home in castle college, a catholic quarter of nuns ran the institution from 1935 to 1971. Paul redmonds Research Shows that the nuns pressured the mothers into signing adoption papers for their children. Paul was separated from his mother shortly after his birth, and he was adopted when he was just 17 days old. Thats a funny, mixed emotions. Been back here because his grandma life starts of my life color gone and one of 2 directions, one was to stay for the actual motor total was to be adult. This. So this place is like on a rail junction with 2 roads or trucks. And the old dry golf, the more it was on my mind. Why was i given away . What happened . Is there something wrong with me . He now knows that his birth mother is called adeline. She was 20 years old and, and married at the time. Her parents paid the order 100. 00 irish pounds to make the baby disappear. Of the if you are pregnant, denied, and then you were married. Then you are just a horrible sooner on the pallet. And as they would do anything, they called to just polish you for lunch. So its important that we remember all these things and bear with this and make sure to future generations. Dont forget poll. Redmond has set up a Self Help Group to make sure that doesnt happen. Today he is arranged to meet others like himself on the side of the former home. Yeah. Yeah. Cause you guys know, re, you get to see you guys are saving us. My whole wants to give others the opportunity to confront their past. Almost all the adopted children are trying to trace their routes. Many do not know to this day who their mother was missing documents and the non stony silence also dogged lawrence cloaks attempts to traces past. Like when i started looking and i got in touch with the nuns and they said its very difficult. Go back and look for your mother, like because she could be anywhere in the world. Thats gonna cost money because we lawrence received this letter from the religious order back then. Paul reads it out to the group. This is time consuming and could be expensive. Solves, he wants us to go ahead, we would need help in the area as we are in voluntary society. Well, thats the strait of lloyd, and we are not voluntary safe of hearts adoption. Sorry, the sauce was a professional and registered agency changing baby, and they go pick up money from the government to look after it. For 2 years, the nuns kept demanding money from lawrence and kept finding him off from the nuns, only revealed his mothers name when he threatened to stop the payments. And when i was adopted, but i was looking to come back and find yeah. And the 191991 race, i found a letter about 2025 years and i finally found another 10 years after that was a long back for a long time, the survivors were unaware the scale of this inhumane system. Paul found out that almost 1. 10 babies born in Castle Pollard did not survive. Ready ready literally right between a need are fee stores of those 245. 00 form of barriers on the 150. 00 still by itself is about 400. 00 babies. Very dear paul has written a book about ireland mother in baby homes so so being adults, digital, fully 100 percent face, which are adults and families, 100 adults fully faced with charged actual 5 the darkest eric on saw was the volume is be easy to over they do sort of feel a sense of kinship. We all call one another, a creative mace. And the group is being a huge benefit for everybody. And if i people talk about in the last about how its changed our lives and made them feel less lonely and give them the best sense of belonging to the survivors for yesterdays unwanted children. The, the mother in baby home in june was torn down in 1972. Catherine corliss has a scale model of the building in her living room. The amateur historian brought the nuns, appalling abuse to light. She discovered that the babys bodies had been disposed of in a disused Sewage Treatment system under ground. She had uncovered one of the biggest scandals in ireland history. When catherine confronted the authorities with what she has discovered, the stone walls, nobody wants it, the hair bosses that tried everything to come out against me, even the people per, per treasures of course tried to stop me a call because the counselor did everything in their power to stop me because they knew what happened at their response, but so they did their best to cover up wild homes like whom were run by catholic nuns, regional authorities were generally responsible for their supervision. One woman against the church and the state assisted in her research by her husband, aiden irish media 1st reported on the scandal in 2014. Catherine began receiving threats and that is still going on to this day. But she refused to be intimidated. Interviews would probably got some and tyler say that i had to do this. And especially if nobody was listening or want to listen is this is if i put another baby spelled to become read babies to me. And just because the religious and that the word, the word in the parking an i put enough understand toiletries it hasnt been brought into the waters could not be in parkins. They wouldnt give the medicine, they wouldnt call a doctor. And they just let them die. I feel the cold term, the death certificate in particular, continue to haunt catherine. Some records of other mother and baby homes spacious. Thats but thats for, for suffice stuff. Some other with the told us to she give birth of the baby died instead of this stuff. If it may have been given to a couple from america or are elsewhere as quite possible, thats a lot of the babies havent died at all. So just tell me the best or do you think youre going with in the course of her research . Catherine has made many of the survivors. Her revelations have changed the lives of p. J, have her tea and carmel larkin. Shes returned a piece of their identity to them in america, it is for him. Now hes a carpenter. Thats where you type in bar and carmen here and then the charter. So youre now back here. Thats that was a bit further say. And then yeah, your poor mother. Then after giving birth to the left over here, she was given 7 days rest with the baby, the notes the 7 days. So just and that was, it is open and do all the heavy work thats with population. Lots of some scrubbing floors student over time. Yeah. Birth certificates, adoption papers, letters for decades, the nuns and the adoption authorities kept all these documents under lock and key. Everybody was afraid of the police, afraid of the religion, afraid of everything they took control on everything completely. And the effect in that they didnt want us to do one thing and just hide over thing. It was another way of torching you. There was no investigation as to who did all this damage while you with them babies pushing to adopt a lot of times you couldnt take the knowns. Im anyways, cuz they have mess up amount of money. The government even were afraid to confront the known sort of church. They could get a top dollar to start or celeste or in the world, not in europe. So how could you, would you compete that you couldnt win, as no one was held responsible for the dead babies of choose the order of nuns that ran home only apologize in 2021. When the government published its report. And that report came too late for many of those affected who doubt whether the state is really interested in uncovering the truths. Pga haggerty is now 71. He lives just a few kilometers from to a small farm. Peach. It was just under 7 when he was fostered with the stigma of being illegitimate, has stayed with him his entire life. So when they came to my teams, thats the ones ive got very difficult for me then. Thats when i got the videos from people that found out that i was bored notices outside of wedlock, which is a big market, the st. Evaluate safe and just reject you back to you and just called your names for no, actually a reason. I couldnt understand why an old thats affected me growing up at the eventually then. I went to a river to do away with myself because i couldnt take any more life. Life didnt look back on june and i still have this insight, me all the time. Like, you know, i really do the Irish Government has announced compensation plans, but only those people who spend at least 6 months in a mother and baby home will be eligible p j have or t is set to receive 40000 zeros. Were only getting peanuts were only getting a fraction when you thing like those 7 years take note of my life locked up what i call the prison nursing home, i presume. Like honest something youve taken over my life. I dont know anything about just and you must have taken away from you. Thats what christ. In his early twenties, pj, i started looking for his birth mother. He asked neighbors and other locals and discovered that his mother was living in london. At 1st they exchanged letters. Then she agreed to meet him. From his mother, p. J discovered that she had never wanted to give him away. For 5 years, she had knocked at the door of the home every day. But the nuns turned her away. She looked for me, she wants to do everything for me, but she was restricted. She told me of delays for them to know that she didnt leave me there because she didnt like me or she didnt want me. Which was nice to know that she did want to make sure did over time to get me out. And that was lovely. Like, you know, it cleaned, it took a sort of feel, you know, that your friends were hillman, he who were part of the human race and over thing like, you know, that your data from what the image html that i need to talk to. And i think so it went to northwest north of the in dublin. And a corrigan search goes on. She still doesnt know for sure what happened to her 2 brothers. So she collects everything connected to the mother in baby homes, birth and death certificates. Baptism certificates and investigation reports for search has become central to her life. And i grew up as an only child. She only discovered by chance that she had siblings after her mothers death. Its like somebody has given you a big buying that a big wooden cudgel or a big wrecking bottle. It takes a lot of time to process that. My mother never had told me anything about her time, interim home. People didnt discuss it because in a lot of case scenario, and this was there was a lot of shame attached being in a home. And i came across a medical report in documents held by the adoption authorities. An entry about her brother john read. He was a miserable, emaciated child with a voracious appetite and no control over bodily functions. What happened to discharge from birth to 12 months that he ends up in this condition, no control over bodily functions. If sean is dead, i contend he died and id like to mon nutrition. In 2014 and i contacted the police as johns cause of death is under investigation. For brother, william is officially classed as a missing person. On the outskirts of dublin, paul redmond lives with his adoptive mother. He helps look after his adoptive father, his dad is they were open about his adoption. It didnt really kind of occurred to me. Whats the top the demand of july, this 7 arrange. Im gonna have a vivid memory of being english and then the 1st mcdonalds in ireland, which i have a lot of mirrors at the time. I dont remember seeing my whole family in the queue and looking at the mirror, it seemed to everybody else. The family had black hair and i had red hair, so that was one of the 1st times i kind of realize thats what it really means to be adopted. And i knew what it meant to be adopted, but that was the 1st time. But really most of the hit me his adoptive parents didnt know what really went on in the mother in baby homes. So they couldnt answer posed questions. I started searching as a teenager around them. I was 50. I took my bicycle, the sides of it to delta. After look, you know, the address of the Adoption Society in the fall book. I like an absolute show. I have to stare knocking on the store. And of course, they just got ready to pull treasures the result of his search. It took 25 years to track down his mother adeline. But on the telephone, she told him that she didnt want any contact. All it all has is this letter or this semester is a personal touch. Its something she wrongs at something she touched. So its, its some sort of physical connection. The physical connection. It might not have a hold or a kiss, but at least you got something to talk to him, hold. I did find peace and bought a very straight and sort of piece. I kind of became know more about the whole team. You can trace and you can search and you can do this as you can. You can. How so the government from mountains of paperwork going to the end of the day. You cannot make somebody want that relationship with you. It has to be their choice. Such a slight pain floyd solved and i have the cold calls to believe no. Unfortunately the obvious which has to stay comfortably. No, theres no p j have or t was at least able to meet his birth mother. I talked to him that day on like once we had a nice broken and we had met. Wed meet again on function today. Life doesnt work that way. He didnt go that way. Decades of separation cannot be put aside just like that. Peter, his mother didnt want to interfere in his life and avoided further contact. 35 years passed before the 2 of them saw each other again to his mother was 88 and no longer recognized her son. She died shortly afterwards. The only thing is i talked to visa cuz when i talked to him know if most of our stuff and if im not the mother, i dont know if the mother even is so for me to find my mother. That was a big thing. And not knowing that then, but to be able to go to a funeral and see how be led to rest. So i can conclude to myself that definitely definitely okay, man, have got that much more. Thats it now. But as of now, p j would like to find the last piece and the person who was his biological father. He hopes the dna test will shed light on that. Catherine corliss is helping him just because its like technical. If a test page, you go with all the tests going to participate in the discussion codes and the you stop talking because it gives you dna records of even a distant relative of his fathers are held anywhere. P j will no more truth the whole truth and nothing. What says catherine gets inquiries from all over the world. She looks for names and Contact Details of survivors, relatives with the help of dna test results and online databases. I faded gold. If i get answers for them, its the same thing as to bait the system. A lot of those people who are born in the home, they are not allowed to see their own records. See who their mother is. Older father is that information belongs to the fish, and thats a sole source. Ill get a good feeling if i find something for that family. Theyre so happy there. So a time for i have changed their life. And what more could i ask . The results from pjs dna test will take a few weeks to arrive. Paul redmond is concerned with one question above all. Why didnt his mother try to trace him . Not only the long silence of the state and the church are to blame over the years, a kind of our, by our side, a lot of the monitors. Ive been told that it was a terrible more to say to reconcile or have a reunion with our child that was dropped and then took them into boulder and baby helps. I live with something that really stays with monitors, because a more to say it was tossed the worst of the worst. I mean a rags up. There were bird or am. And if you come in a more to said, do to have for all the time to see it changed my perspective on my natural mother by making me realize that she missed a victim and thought we were both victims out to buy a person to weigh as well, in 2018, pope francis visited ireland. As a survivor, paul was invited to an audience with the pontiff. He asked the pope to set the record straight about model since we are all the time. Remaining single mother were told not to see that children, but this was a multiple saying im also saying irish adoption agencies. So a sudden jump in the number of tracing requests after the popes announcement, im afraid of all the teams we tea, thats the wall and the kind of stays with me the most in some ways, i mean door motors and the top. These and all corners violent and theyd be living and shame and fee, or of silence for turkey. 145060 years old vibes of 5 lead. The pope 5 of central free of all this nonsense. Now what is a display stuff in new orleans around the motor . A baby helps have a sense the ignored want. The pope said they havent tasted responsibility, they have and an offer to to call attribute towards redress for survivors. Pauls battle continues to wants the Irish Government to pay compensation to all survivors, regardless of how long they were in the homes. He plans to go to the Country Supreme Court if necessary and is still waiting for answers about what really happened to her brother is john and william im hoping that they do find my brother. I mean were getting older and 67 this year. So my brothers into the seventys, so time is running else and theres more of a glimmer of hope there. This he is and i was, i made some he may not want to know me, but i just wanted say so your life you survived. You dont think may look like do i wish you a very happy days . If you dont want to know, im just please leave. Turn that letter for you. If you do want to know id be over the amount of bringing home a, introduce you to your nieces and nephews, a show you my show you where i live, bring use the countryside, show you where a mother was from, bring it to where shes buried. So then you are peace and you can send me the piece for me. The, the government has now announced it will have the remains in june exhumed. Perhaps this will give on a certain to you about the fate of both of her brothers p. J search. Also still goes on the dna test, didnt provide any leads about his fathers identity. 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