Consensus, talk to about type of the 28 franchises. And sometimes its exhausting. Trying to find in, in about an adjustment of, on, in the home life can be exhausting. Listening to people talk about pet t saying like slight, theyre important if i could scream. But what good would that to me . It was me. Its like jumping back and forth between 2 well the and mcadams spring close, its ok to enjoy yourself. And just to now start, but dealing with life and dest, you have to process it. You can just shut to telephone from the field on november, november the full, every time i come to the hospice, im filled with the kind of joy. Its not that easy to talk about so its just anybodys picky them time coming up. Nice to meet, you know, the time drowning and Infinite Sadness when im alone. But i do think about it too low, and i think i find positive energy in difficult situations as well as in happy one that i because barbara always says, how nice that youre here. And every time i think to myself, how nice that i get to be the yeah of the a. Hi its been johan, im it. And im present in the hi. Im yeah. When is the new present is for the video show 21 grams. So what does 21 grams refer to . Thats roughly how much the human. So my way, its not scientifically prove. And of course thats not true, but it needs the most of room for what. What does that leave room for . Oh, crap. Thank its the ones we want to make, dash less of it today and we want to talk with you about things. People dont usually like to talk about. So im still gonna be the, im a companion for the dying, which means that im always standing at the crossroads between life and death lead me to. Ive been doing this for 7 years now. And i have the feeling this way cuz put way more intensity to how im living. Because without death, theres no nice. Nobody knows that stuff are the ones on top of that. Ive also lost in siblings. So death is always played a big role for me. And then with my grandfather go, so i was 11 when he died and saw this decline, the other really alive, man. We did so many things changed within just 2 months. I was there for all of that. So thats been my experience with that so far. How did you say you were at the funeral to be adding home about . I was at the funeral and i saw him for the last time for the 2 weeks before he died. I visited him for the last time. It was already pretty far gone. How did regressed a lot . He talked about his mother. He didnt really recognize anyone anymore, but he was still alive and still present somehow. Or why his own grief helps us to see feelings more clearly. Im sense most of to new and i was just because grief doesnt begin with the death of a person. So what grief all of you, just like this is a fact of life that accompanies us. It was just like i accompanied an 8 Year Old Girl who lost a 12 year old sister to bone campsite fund on them. And you know, i doing the family rights off to the dad will come and sit by another with n r. I noticed that she was sometimes the police side for a moment, a moment and then she was okay. Again its been divided. So we go back to play a piece of intel up with this. Like she jumped from one pool of sadness to the next class, and often its the case with us adults that we think of just such a well of grief. But we cant get out of else. We will mess drowned and it then goes, i definitely noticed that some major differences between children and adults of oxygen and all the on the estimate assessed that in for a few weeks. Ive seen a company, mandy, who has a serious hot conditions down soon. She will die. Hes on the waiting list for hospice bed of on demand vice when this divide signed it. Well, thats what i was wondering about your bucket list, or i would have called a wish list of, of why do you call it a bucket list . In there, for instance, tom. Yeah, its quite a funny story. I saw a movie wants was to fill stuff to her in the hospital and they said to themselves, hey, i still have certain things that i would like to do or has the field before i kick the bucket, to go home and they still, before she moved up and then it became so clear to me a bucket list, which was those things that i would still like to do before i kick the bucket, to move up to you, the top feeder that you have so many or 40 or 40 to right. Now. Wow. And all the ones that just codes youve done those to exactly. I to feel the or shape them somehow. Almost all the time. It was funny in the beginning, when you think about it, what do you really want to do or experience in your life . I so thats where its like there were a couple of things where i thought to myself as well, hello. This might be exactly what i want from life done or what would happen. For example, id like to eat fresh strawberries or fly. I thought that would never really happen. Then suddenly i found myself sitting in an ultra lot airplane and it was like, wow, well because flying me kind of means interesting to me. Probably because i had a near death experience. I felt this kind of freedom then to be honest, irish things i had good her from the some of the kind of felt some of that again and this out for lifeline. Just existing between heaven. And that was really fascinating for me. So for me just for senior type is hes in and when did you start writing all that down . Just a moment of oxen was enough maam. Looks 9 beautiful list. Immediately off to my last surgery from which was when i decided not to undergo any more surgeries, that was a very major operation because they had to be super late me 4 times. And it became very clear to me like no, ive had a total of 11 life saving hot interventions guys, but thats enough. Or i didnt the same bread, so to speak. I decided to take this palliative rogia to and also to pursue these wishes. So if i could list of what id like to do, and i still havent got their final set, youve already had a near death experience. Um, how does, what do you think happens after death and told me no, its for me for the stuff. What about sort while im totally convinced that i know because in this new test experience, i didnt see a bright light tunnel like some people too. I saw myself dying from a box for me it was completely bizarre because i could hear and feel this crazy alarm sound. Coming from the marta i could field and this is 5th. But at the same time there was also a complete stillness total silence. So it was completely quiet and noisy at the same time. And there was also the total piece. I noticed that i no longer had any questions. I also had this strange, 360 degree view without having to move in any particular way. Thats what this come give yet and it became clear to me that in the end the 1st thing would be one mail. And i noticed that before and then it was clear, well, hello, there you go. My fear of death immediately vanished after this near death experience phone, Contact Number on the the money you take about it and its gone. Yes, its going about that. Thats what id like to ride the road. A coaster. Okay. Okay. But that was pretty cool too. Yeah. As to april, the 11th, i may tell her i said, childrens bereavement, great. I was leading these midnight to to a few months before her big sister died of bone cancer. She was only 12 and, and it was 8 years old. And somehow we instantly clicked and since then i have a company, the family show through that grief, joy and gum yet as ita sits in her folder. Tell me what youre planning. Lice than done reading the document. Yeah. Okay. Im yeah, i just have your mind, right. I have my dissertation. So bad guys. And we also have, im interested in the agency of terminally ill children to nephew to venus. And because i think that children on to involve nearly enough in this whole process when it comes to therapy meshes and just being included in the whole Decision Making process. It seems as though it is a handheld, though i think you should definitely let the kids have their so its gonna be deed of course you could also consider the parents perspective, the design other actually assessing how equipped to their children or to decide on these issues im going to non so it but the children should definitely be involved. You should ask about their opinions and wishes and also about agents. Think that whats in them . Oh my god. So based on that, do you think that you find a Company Different families . So my doctoral thesis now for a few months. So for a year then i might get to many different perspectives because no 2 families that were like, do the, the, im glad i then somehow incorporate them all come to us to know. Would that still be scientific enough for them . Assistance offers them. You know, the best contact, Qualitative Social Research could be really going into depth, not taking a broad approach if you have found it. And then it becomes less about having as many cases or families as possible. And more about looking at what are the very concrete subjective issues that come up and asking a terminally ill child. These questions have been with them and then, and if you do that over a long period of time, you will need significantly fewer cases than if you were to just conduct a series of interviews. So i would 1st wait until you have the Research Design and then you can look at the next step is done. How many families do you need to answer your questions . Fine, so that will be decided on the fine print sent on june. The 15th. The thing for me that still inexplicable is how the time i spend in the hospice is imbued with the menlo de cool, nice, gentle rhythm of nice weather. Adagio will presto, mine arrow major. Everythings held together by a structure, everything interact just with everything else. Its like the values of we defined to man, im increasingly aware of the emotional depths that sign could face in the world itself and its inhabitants. And so ive got this, this is, this is i feel very, very comfortable here. I just have to say that over fee is i had to just go on. Although i cant say exactly why i simply feel comfortable here and feel like coming good hands, you know, good of the somebody for me. I never used to feel this way, but eventually its irrelevant whether i still have 3 months or only for another 2 years. But its just not important. You said you decide, im enjoying this time that i have now like this is, its beautiful because all the things that i have suffered in my cost dont matter anymore than that versus the developer says, how was it for you to grow up in an alternate gmc goes to say it doesnt shape me a lot, for example, because of that experience. I didnt want to come here. I didnt want to come to this hospice life isnt very easy. Is it for you this too much ahead of you, but you dont even know it yet. So thats Something Else thats good for me. Im gonna look, theres not much that can happen to me anymore, but i see on them. Are you afraid of death . Because it doesnt sound like its on the roll, please. No, not at all. Especially since i was told that my dad would be simply losing my strength, losing the desire to do anything with the sort of you the said it would be like slowly saying good bye to life and falling asleep. When the im and i will not resist this study this, this is only, i think that death comes when its supposed to come on. And that is quite reassuring domain transfer with the mind like the the each oh, by the applied to the site to be b. As in the boston, the items on august august, the 21st im leaving a message to me personally is supporting the people here and making their lives most beautiful because we so i want to push a smile on their faces and enjoy life with them to the fullest or as much as possible. Life is so precious and we only get one. Even if he knows its incredible we, ive assumed you should still make every my minutes and unforgettable body. Some of them. Maybe im taking on a bit too much for. But thats my goal. Notice and you should always have a goal. And so i dont mind seeing how ok. So i think these need to go back. You guys have no, yes i had the same. So when i saw that somehow doesnt fit to, to, thats what will come, where do these blocks come from . The big data. Theres only the pink one here now, to me, thats a little too so. So really i understand dancing now was really fun up. Some again, ones gonna exactly. So were looking at windows of nearing it like this. Yes. Okay. As positive matches look good. I work on the truck, us to very good. Yes, great. Then very so im just clicking that and then im excited to talk about the back cover. Take 6. We can think about the design is the back cover to hopefully look side to mid threes, things come then then maybe we can look at the whole phone. Hold on in this paragraph, its important to me that these 10 insights come across Even Stronger does. It does it seem as if the books about coming, okay, this of us, of us is full. So, and its not just and the people dealing with them and then phone number to sign kind of close is as you always put it so beautifully. People who are dealing with death dont need to take a mindfulness. Cool. Yeah. Yeah. Kind of does. Instead of a guess, i dont want to write this, but kindly for people who have confronting desk right now. But for everyone, because this is a subject this effect so, so im going to swing willow die at some point. And thats why its so important to somehow deal with the subject before hand. Its what i answer it. When dest eventually happens, it wouldnt be as difficult to manage the a boot store brace last, a cool, thats totally space. If you. 8 after that, so in your bucket the yes and the fresh from random back look really fresh to thank you very much on chris, provide you a one right now. I loved one. Great. So its good to say i havent eaten strawberries for ages. So yes, that was a great idea of yours. My pleasure, please eat there is still plenty in the town. Yes, thats great. I always loved them as a child to my grandmother had a huge god and back then, im from the 3rd. If it was filled with strawberries and cards, things like that. And i was just really present whenever i was the you dont really find me in the god. Mm hm. Because that does also, it also has a lot to do with your childhood, right strawberries. So do you want people 2 weeks to please at your funeral level or do i, what do you think about it . See what else . You know, some people really like things like that for you. For example, i could totally imagine people Drinking Coffee at my funeral. I think thats kind of cool because i also like to drink coffee all the time. I think if enough, like ill be downstairs and some to do to you can drink something. This doesnt time for me. So then im not quite sure about it. I mean, usually i dont wear black i make out to so so should i take some of again the name. Is that ok so far . Fair cool. Very cool. Its somehow much smaller than i expected to ask about. Okay, look so much speaker on tv oh. Of the diesels, in line with a 27 Year Old Company to die out of it. Yes. And then i get that question fairly often. And i always think to myself, why wouldnt i missed as a bottom . Why is the scene is something that said the queue . Yes, yes, its something that everyone finds so difficult and they say, hey, why you doing this . Why are you dealing with such a heavy subject to such a young age and table information for me . It doesnt feel heavy for me, its more of a question of why isnt this a normal thing for us to do it on is it is best forgot something i just dont because i want these with teeth for me on this devils when this that and so for relationships, liam, on this emptiness, and just being in this pure existence, what does line . I think thats what makes me feel even more life and screwing less high is china . Ive got lucy here. Yeah. The, its just way too much going in flour. But we dont have to cool of it. Lets see. No, thats right. You can type some mouse. So much color flour. Didnt know what to do with so much cauliflower. I think i turned it to the overestimated it. When. Okay, no stress. Yeah. Yeah, no im since im, i may, the 19th. He passed away on speakers. They said he wouldnt peacefully in his sleep. I know it must have been a relief for him to finally as the, but it still has the mazda when i go to visit with him full time side design, his eyes were always shining until he couldnt type in the many more. Then he was just sleeping, speechless, mixed only later did i realize how much these meetings had changed me. The interplay of life and death accompanies us every day. We dont want to acknowledge whether somebody, unless dest directly affects us, or someone in our family media. You bought this, this was still ringing my ears. He was never afraid of death thoughts. He was only afraid of lines for them. Leave him. Why not be there you go. Thanks. Have a good flight for 14. Okay. And then please check in with ms. Britsky in room 13 to see if hes ready. Okay. How do i know im bringing you . Not to this extent alicias mrs. Shiva. Oh my god. God, it always sounds delicious. This is fantastic. Right. Wow. Just great. I had hoped for this. I think he requested a sorry, guess potatoes in him. Yes. Because identification todays friday. Right. It smelled like face didnt it . And i was like, yes, yes, thats much better. Now lets tend towards mesa like a nation, so everything is the my milk is this. So everything is good, weve got everything. Yes, of course. Good. Thank you. Should phone up and see. See you later by accident on november, november the 18th. Every now and then i experience moments of doubts. Even though im set this, i found my life cooling, working in a hospice. There are also times when i feel pushed to my limits and some things. And i wonder if i can really do this, come accompany people on that make. I understood so quick like well, were christening the book. Congratulations. Thank you. Is that september the 6 inch thick from time to time when i forget to when my name tag, people asked me how long i has been to patient to you the 2 days. Of course, its my own fault because i deliberately shaved my head, but wouldnt mind hot uplift the lesson. Ive been thinking of shaping my head down to 3 millimeters for a while. You probably just through now this ive actually done it. I feel a lot more feminine than i did before, simply because it feels so much more comfortable. So if you want to feel it, maybe im always looking to do something extreme. And its extremely causal tava. Since to into april, the 16th a musical often noon in the hospice, the year was the last to send 3 organs has stopped functioning. Apart from that music transport so much more than just a few notes. Its beautiful to see when it looks something in a persons mind and causes memories to come flooding back. Now, yes, im the fucking guy, you know, for version low Investigation Mission and yet, so to me it looks great. Wow. And so this is the National Risk and now look, i know rights and may, the 13th, the she was asleep. 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