Please what do you know about saudi arabia. Youre probably thinking all wealthy and rich kids. A nightmare for women under the extreme interpretation of islam. Things people in the west take for granted are a lot. Mixing with opposite sex drinking or talking about politics. But you might also have heard that things have opened up recently under the new crown prince women are now allowed to drive. And for the 1st time men and women have been allowed to listen to Music Together in public. Money specimen and i work as a fascist side its among them. But ive never felt totally at home. I grew up in Northern Ireland but i was born in saudi arabia to sudanese parents this is right yet your street. Begging me to come back to saudi arabia and hope i might be convinced to move there. So. I decided to live with them for 2 weeks to see what my life would be like in saudi what one does or thing that might. Be tied to choke hold a stir resisting attempts to return to the saudi saudi or not having a great time at least in western media yeah we dont about that would i be allowed to party thats the sad thing that i would. If i lived here or go in a date should hinder well its their own children. But this journey is going to be much more challenging than i imagine are you uncomfortable or is it the rules going to be. Copied i feel it were going to get in trouble ill settle down this is crazy but i literally was just reading an article. Ok if you think god bot. Im finally on my way to saudi arabia. Was relieving news breaks about aside a journalist who walked into the Saudi Embassy in turkey and never came out. Its an interesting title change be allowed to go if they could have said no. I dont wear a headscarf back home but my aunt to me to put on for me that. The greatest thing that can happen really you know. Now i have to find out if i can move back to my birth country. You know never. 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Ok what size is this thats tried out. I dont need it though. So the prices prices are they. Didnt send me 100 pounds. We were going to. No next check right. As were Walking Around and notice that most women are wearing film cops but like man said there are also lots of women wearing open abayas and no headscarf are told. So im going to leave this like thats ok i. Left not a problem right. Oh yeah ok listen. Are you uncomfortable or is it the rules. Shes not wearing even. Before we get a chance to try anywhere else all the shops close for prayer 7. I just think youre right in stating. I dont really stop to pray in my normal life but i go along with it for man 7. But when we come right our fixer suddenly andriy asking why jess and i arent wearing a bias in a good way to think like. This but i mean just the film interactor are both dressed in dark loose florid clothing that my aunts helped us choose but apparently its not good enough. And i. Dont know yet i. Was hoping you would think that you. Would be good but. I also know that if. I managed to find a pink abayas for 50 pounds. Im. Happy im getting. Everyone wins. Im a bit annoyed by the way the fixers handled the situation but i also get there with the case they might be a bit more a match. Do you realise all these women are turning around so you can get them just all of them and i know that not everybody wants to be on t. V. But here i feel like theres more to it. I get talking to a girl to check out every single time we have the congo are all the women get really scared of the camera and i dont really understand what theyre. About to people because it really doesnt matter we. Dont a lot of you now have like south china and based. On the worldwide web. So is a lot of it to do with fathers and husbands you know you just dont i think john. I dont have to this is the moment do you agree with you know you dont eat because you dont mind oh yes no i agree with you so this is you play with it because we think you should question children by. This interest and she said because not chinese from this time being on t. V. Is not. Saying that the internet is worse than t. V. Nowadays. Social media seems to be the place to breakthroughs. But it can have consequences. A woman from saudi arabia was arrested after snapchat video surfaced of her Walking Around in a mini skirt and her hair exposed. And in saudi you could be punished for even sitting next to a member of the opposite sex at work. Man has been arrested in saudi arabia after he posted a video of himself having breakfast with a coworker. Social media isnt so relevant for mt. And so many women cover themselves up completely i wonder if she ever feels pressure to do so. Thats number one you ever feel like a judge here for not wearing and the cop. Not. Really nationalities me. Fine that. Is important for me i dont wish to move on i think its a choice. Well i know but i can say. You know. Its not a choice. Choice for me but i go where the other way. Where other less extreme i dont think its for me to even wear. So your petition what you want to do was yeah you have to hit by i dont buy i dont wear one yeah so that i dont have to anything i dont want to have white but i have not have to follow your religion right but i dont but i but i but then us and thats its a messy line. Because. You know i dont want to i dont want to. You know to make me feel like you have to Say Something very much like i couldnt i guess my own personal opinion. On the whole thing. All my life ive tried delicate line between how i want to behave how my family expects of me. And being here is dragging up lots of my old battles. And even just like when. I was like in the car and i stood outside the car in the musical playing im listening just like shit. I dont. Know what youre going to get in trouble and i was like. I havent talked to anyone thats my age. All ive done is talk to adult men and like are 100 minders. So you. You cannot mungo religious piece kind of a recipe because western music theyre on instagram so they are right in the open and are still getting away with it. But. This show that this is a. I decided to take up an invite from a friend of a friend have been speaking to online to go to the launch party the magazine that is 7 minutes away. I know lets just say that they are looking a lot but i am well by the way when we come in ok ok im going to get a mysterious that. Ok i must ask why were here i know. But i dont know. How. Youre going to. Work. Thats. What the. Destination magazine is a government indoor city guide which also promotes up and coming southeast thinkers. From the times when. I was. Thank you. Im. Going. To be. Signing my friend tonight. So. You know if. I. Am the 100 hour and a half hour now on our. Like. Whole. Thing. For 6. 6. 00. I mean i know. You. Know. I wake up feeling more at ease after seeing whats possible in saudi. But just when im starting to feel better about saudi theres news about the missing journalist. Cia directors heard audio recording of interrogation the killing a Saudi Crown Prince battles to contain crisis now they say hes been too easy he died in a chokehold a stir resisting attempts to return to the saudi his body was then rolled into iraq and given to the local corp which are disposed of. So effectively whats happening is the crown prince is now saying they did do it that he wasnt aware of it and the people that didnt do it will pay for it. Heres a picture of. The son of the deceased anything that. They hit up so scared. By to clear my hand which in my case. To the wheel. If im seriously going to consider living here i need to see whether i could meet someone. In their lives since that. Point of ok no. I dont have any. Time off to know. I think you know and some of the time you have a place and then enough when he realized how much of a take. I hate to be they can he say but. I thought. I could never again. But when i raised the idea of going on a date me no way. I called my brother back in the u. K. To get his advice and listen to but the concept of me going and sitting at a table with another man effectively all course ears eyes but just like the strangest thing to them like an ideal world it was ideal world like to me most of the time to fix you up we supplied you with. Tricks of the spirit you just keep hoping id be back next topic so now you get them right why not start the dice that you once the lives of great body of the day i say go for it because you can do it i wouldnt take any series of life their thoughts on this wherever the consequences are its and reversible was there was no guilt yet guilt here theres nothing to be guilty i am letting you know yet im letting go of letting people. Suffer this time the only people down the only kidding ourselves here right ok guys i better go to the bins in the room with a locked door for a while it makes it look like im like. I mean we are in no way tonight to reverse the reverse the lead in this. And the who left of the youll. Be shut me about for the for. A month until im ok. Beside me while the outside world is still folks in the case we decided to go to mecca. Cumbersome to have a semi. Then meet somebody and they pay through i think this house for me it means that its. Beeping and i just want to offer up a hockey stick and this concert it will be happy to sack him and if its in happened to me before hi pete sampras for hooked up with this. Man helps me into the city from. This to purity need to be a free enter mekka. That i dont need to hear my side doesnt get any opinion that you have it with me ive been in and cant sing but its hard to keep an almost like hes. For the 1st time in a while i start to think more closely about my relationship with god. Our. Family said that she wanted us to do more together and i suddenly feel guilty for doing it without her. It would not i want to hear it. Everywhere we. Go i ring it after i get past the mountains. Like. Its. Just one of them. Well lets hear it look you know youve been living in the moment d where i swear she was. Left if you think they should get to both your. Families. And it looks more. Like. The slice of mom if youre going to salvage this morning the feeling it was. Because. Even the mean i think you know that even when im out of my body. For the longest limbs. Are not allowed to enter mecca so we stuck to that just turn back. Misuari out a way. And. Theres something incredibly moving about being here with thousands of other people. My history will not be about that and my need to get too young is a business only and yes and i will not be yeah i know mr monk and if you went out which it could read out like that in my eyes you would not and i yet you can see me. Either way that will get. I get that you need to go to the point you know we love. You. Theres a law about being muslim that i love and visiting mecca reminded me of that but the way south interprets the rules of islam sometimes feels wrong it scares me that as a woman i wouldnt be totally in control of my own life if i lived here. Im not sure id want to raise a daughter in a country where her male relatives can make her decisions for her. Just recently i heard about the case of a half a can of. A saudi teenager he fled to thailand escaped from insanity alleging abuse. And there are so many other stories like hers. But as i keep finding the sanity nothing is clear cut. Looking for a place to exercise i come across a mixed group of men and women whove been in public. I decide to join the next session but 1st i need to find something to run and. This is your gym is anything more than a trainer. Women have only been able to run in public in the last year so im because most women still wouldnt feel comfortable running with. James. Has designed special sports about. This was our original yeah it was. It comes in 2 different ones it comes in orange with payment of warning and theres a large. 10. 00 which is more suitable for running or biking. And i try them again for sure. Yeah but. Thats the full. Ride this is a war and. Its just not where i was if i could really do whatever here. This is like me because it started making a connection with people like if im working in your area and we see each other from far away its like we both you know i was so low reading this this weird and yet really connection really feeling between people and i think thats a change missed now the saudis changing everyone feels like lets kind of get together and its pretty that these are like hearts of be like were both doing it well yeah weve been forward a little bit you know its thats constantly why does anything like a few months ago and now its gotten so much better yeah because there are a lot of a lot more girls behind the wheel right now but its like we still need a lot of work. Speaking to jane reminds me that ive already been here a week but i still havent driven a car. Its hard to believe the before june 2018 women would be arrested for attempting to drive. On its way out of the race. Just to try to have a good surface ability and i could get them to us or against his ability to manipulate me and my disability. And i was in a lot of parts of the law i wanted to just show up. And it was going to be a delicate matter but i tell my aunt that i want to drive a car but look sure that you we pulled for you right in front of the ferris towie because here this is where we were worried about the. Car driving rather than being allowed to carry. Everything anything we have been. Told our it is no. It is for the 1st time the rumors are flying out all right if you only want so much right now. So its about keeping up appearances so it happens im creating a bad. I was trying to understand just out. On the field and call from the same book if you come here i need to see this license for right on my 42 years or more write everything that lets you know i am emotional is not afraid to write ok but im going to make strides. So you protect. Its not going to meet one of the 1st im going to want to know your life well you might as well never be and were going to do whatever you want is going to happen ok so i want everything you believe from a to do with it. Was. Sort of. What. Badminton no it. Doesnt. Get. By. You i decided to take my chances if im going to live here i need to be able to carry around a man. I might even be the 1st british woman to drive in saudi. Arabia. Our government minder is at the carbon to place me arrive and hes already decided where he wants me to try to get on our show. I go. Oh. Why was this not so it still is official and. What. It does it is. Still. So awful it is. A little bit right its just something different. I havent told them that this is my 1st time driving with an instructor i only got my license 2 weeks before coming. Lets lets get this there for us oh as america you know whats tries to tell a. Kid to pick out. Just. Caution its nice houses look at that so the house is a palace. But the people who live here work us the clothes people. Businessmen of the high position like governor needed to get him into. The company. The fixer instructs me. To where he wants me to try. Last crack making you turn. Thats a big statement into their yeah youre. Of course saying so hed use hearing you want is youve heard him. Talk away before you know i know you told me before but i dont we dont actually do you turns in the u. K. Theyre a little bit happy that theyre there i cant really. I need to understand the privilege that i have right now. Where 2 women in the front seat of a car which has only been available to be in the spring. In the last week i. Only stop for a minute we ask our fixer to get the s. P. From the other car so we can play some music. Its not mean just her alone thats because Activists Campaign for the right to trance. On the evening of september 26th. At home in Riyadh Saudi Arabia and her smartphone she was not the only one under a gag order that she was then i think government had made some more calls to other womens rights activists and the government effectively wanted to take credit they dont want the activists to take credit for they feel like theyre like we as men get the t. V. Even though theyve been advocating for 3 years. The article goes on to say the legend others are now in prison. Minutes later to me turn sour. So. Why are you outside you dont need to be outside it turns out the one of our local crew overheard us talking about the imprisoned activists and immediately reported it to the government minder. The people in charge of the fixers company are furious. We didnt have a lot of this is crazy but i literally was just reading an article. Because were going to be fighting for the right to drive and i can drive because women are fighting for the right to drive because were going to fall for the rights drive now i can drive. It in the car for a 2nd just cant. Shes business said stop going to they speak to me campaigning. Shes like the snobs this is not the set of balls im going to destroy the truck im going to i dont use them. And why should i care about activists the only reason women can drive is because the truth about it. Is its a straight. Control is. To drive us back home and tell us not to film i said the house where the content the government and react. Im not going to sit here i dont. And wait. What i wouldnt give to be. Available yet im also going to my. Letter 1st. And see. If you. Know if your. Kids securing. Elevates from. Go on we go for short. d the stern need. For. The fix is to stop replying to messages we finally received a text from our office in london. d d your face is the word. I do nobody has heard the social might pull the plug to the filling question were still waiting for a letter from them maybe told us many times you know file but the current situation. So now was. No really like now one. 15th out by. Elsa coming back from a country that markets etc my mother. Im so nervous she couldnt make us you know. The next morning we call our boss. To get out of the country. We just want things out as we speak the singers the government. And with the film mission because they are. Angry saying we have done. Wrong things by. Sensitive sure smart women. Quote. The current story about the south. Where jets. Ask. Im disappointed because like i just i guess this week was like reduce so many find the missing things that you dont doing this week like this its such a shame says reading female entrepreneurs disagreed and i was going running with a running client i mean i dont d dislike this country and id like the people have had a nice time i mean its almost like you have to leave the country at the. Kind of. Thing that they want to do and let them do it dont dont try is the west to china positive life light of something that they dont want to they dont want us to shine a light on their own country. And next step of work now its like a far its just a shame more than saying its a shame yeah im really disappointed. Because. Very unlucky. Or went wrong ok it was just. Infatuation point of view and i think this will be a very big experience for both of you ok thats what us also ok for me i dont want to feel sorry i thought theres nothing. To it. Ok. Ok so the east he is going to be flown. To the next flight to london. Is. Going to. Be. Im not going to believe it. But. Im sad to have to leave. When. I came here to see if i could live in the country i was born and. Supposedly knew saudi arabia. And spite the horror story of the murder of the saudi journalist. I was willing to give it a chance that i might restore my sense of identity. But it seems assad hasnt really changed. Im not wanted in this country. Just because i mentioned the name of a female activist in an effort to understand what right have heres a woman. I dont think saudi is a bad place. To change before i could ever think about making my life here. And. Camera. And. Talented filmmakers from different parts of the world all have one mission and they live for sale on a plane that barely know the time and spend the free women show them what better means for them to march 21. And 30 minutes on d w. 3 jenny follow surprises got it all out. 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