The only reason. Please what do you know but saudi arabia. Youre probably thinking all well and rich kids. And nightmare for women under extreme interpretation of islam. Things people in the west take for granted are not. Mixing with opposite sex drinking or talking about politics. But you might also have heard the things have opened up recently under the new crown prince women are now allowed to drive. And for the 1st time many women have made a large listen to Music Together in public. Money is best man and i work as a fashion side its in london. But ive never felt totally at home. I grew up in Northern Ireland but i was born in saudi arabia to sudanese parents this is so right yet in the street. Begging me to come back to saudi arabia and hope i might be convinced to move there. So. I decided to live with them for 2 weeks to see what my life would be like in saudi deserting the like. A chokehold a star was a step time search for saudi or not having a great time in western media yeah we dont want to talk about. Would i be allowed to party that. I wouldnt. If i lived here or go on a date should hinder well if theyre all to do. It this journey is going to be much more challenging than i imagined are you uncomfortable or is it the rules going to be. Copied i just feel it were going to get in trouble ill settle this is crazy but i literally was just reading an article. Ok if you dont bot. Im finally on my way to saudi arabia. Which is relieving news breaks about a Society Journalist who walked into the Saudi Embassy in turkey and never came out and. Its an interesting time to see be allowed to go if they could have said no. I dont wear a headscarf back home but my aunt told me to put it on for me. The greatest thing that can happen really you know. Now i have to find out if i can move back to my birth country. Or you know now. Im entering saudi jess the director of the film. Is 2 women we hope to see things that a male korean might not be able to. Not to mention the inside of man types. Oh oh oh no please please me. And. My cousin not just man meets us. And then with that. Comment because its such a. Scene. I must i must say we did it. And who despite having had the 5 hour. Reason my. Mother the fact that what you hear here you can see if thats true. Or not its like everyones talking about it isnt the same you know whatever no not really were. Going to be living here with a laugh. A mother to and thats back. So i refer to them all as im new to the arabic front. This is citrus moment the youngest of my and. Former colleague. And this is not the Middle Sister hes the sitting from sudan oh i feel really. Only man in the house is much better husband who doesnt want to be on camera. That he. Has worked as a University Professor here for 25 years. Something you know there nobody. I forgot with these women theyre all that my mother and i seem to think is fine you know look at them you know look at me by doing something. I thought i would feel really unsafe being here but so far i feel nothing but 60. 2 you are. Weak you. Knew it. Was like. Moulin rouge. Notion more than linda. I think it was a big issue that. I believe by. And by. And that was yesterday and that may sound i ducked. And i have to say that you may have that what has that all shouted a lot of you do love you. Although the dress code seems to have listened and that mans trust me the way they like. They want to see if. We. Could see if it is. Part of the deal for being allowed to film inside is our company by fixers and the government minder at all times. We need them downstairs. Loved ones that are being let off. By something above you. Need. To. Come to them over a period. Which is a mix of the usual western brands but also special about shops. So block. Sizes that. Its tried out. I dont need it. So the prices prices that they. Didnt stand a 100 pounds. We were going to. Know next. As were Walking Around and there is that most women are wearing film the cops are like man said there are also lots of women wearing open bias and no headscarf are told. So im really just like us ok. I love not a problem right. Are you ok. Are you uncomfortable or is it the rules. Shes now way. Before we get a chance to try anywhere else all the shops close for prayer. I just think youre right. I dont really stop to pray in my normal life but i go along with it for man. But when we come right our fixer suddenly im very ask my jess and i arent wearing a bra is a good. Thing like going to sleep but. I mean just the film interactor are both dressed in dark loose florid clothing that my aunts helped us choose but apparently its not good enough. For them and i. Know. That most of you didnt think i. Would be good for you but i also know that if. I managed to find a pink abayas for 50 pounds. She said im. Happy. To give. Everyone away and. Im a bit annoyed by the way the fixers handled the situation but i also get there with the case they might be a bit more a match. And you realise all these women are turning around so you can get them just all of them although i know that not everybody wants to be on t. V. But here i feel like theres more to it. I get talking to a girl to check out and missing the time we have the congress all the women get really scared of the camera and i dont really understand what theyre. About to people because. We. Dont a lot of you now have like south china based. On the world wide web. So is a lot of it to do with fathers and husbands you know you just. I dont know you know this is a moment do you agree with you know you dont need it because you dont mind oh yes no i agree with you so if this camera you play with. I think you should question children by. This interest and she said theres not a chance from the time being on t. V. Is not. Say that the internet is worse than t. V. Social media seems to be the place to breakthroughs. But it can have consequences. A woman from saudi arabia was arrested after snapchat video surfaced of her Walking Around. In a mini skirt and her hair exposed. And in saudi you could be punished for even sitting next to a member of the opposite sex at work. Man has been arrested in saudi arabia after he posted a video of himself having breakfast with a coworker. Social media isnt so relevant for man. And so many women who cover themselves up completely i wonder if she ever feels pressure to do so. Thats number one ever feel like just here for not wearing and the cops. Are really nationalities me i find that it. Is important for me i dont wish to move on i think its a choice. Well i know but i can say. You know. This is a. Choice for me but i want. To wear it on the less extreme i dont think its for me to even wear. So its your petition of what you want what someone says yeah you have to heat up by dont buy dont wear one yeah so that i dont have to anything i dont want to white but im not to follow your religion right but i dont but i but i but then us and thats its a messy line. I mean. Because. You know i dont want to i dont want to. You want to make me feel like you have to Say Something very much like i can i guess my own personal opinion. On the whole thing. All my life ive tried delicate line between how i want to behave my family expects of me. And being here is dragging up lots of my old battles. Again from like winning. It was like in the car next to the car in the musical playing im listening just like should have been i dont. Like what theyre going to get in trouble if you dont and i just i mean. I havent talked to anyone thats my age. All of that is talk to our both men unlike our 100 minders. Not long ago religious police could have a recipe western music there on instagram so they are in the open and are still getting away with it. Thank you. But. This show that this is a. I decided to take up an invite from a friend of a friend have been speaking to on line to go to the launch party the magazine that is 7 minutes away that. You know lets just say that with no luck but i am well by the way when we come in ok ok i dont know why but i was going to say ok ok im not sorry were here i know i am. But im not. Going to. Be my. Best. Work to go. To. Her. Destination magazine is a government indoor city guide which also promotes up and coming southeast figures. Oh. My. Gosh. You. May. Be. Signing my friend to write. So much. Time thinking i think i. Am going on about how i asked him how i met up like how are you. Like. This oh. Oh. Oh oh. Oh. Oh. Oh oh oh oh. Oh. Oh oh oh oh. I mean i. Do. I wake up feeling more at ease after seeing whats possible in saudi. But just when im starting to feel better about saudi theres news about the missing journalist. Cia director has heard audio recording of interrogation the killing a Saudi Crown Prince battles to contain crisis another saying he didnt he died in a chokehold a stir resisting attempts to return to saudi his body was then ruled into robin given to the Corporate Church to dispose of so effectively whats happening is the crown prince is now saying they did do it that he wasnt aware of it and the people that didnt do it will pay for it heres a picture of. The son i guess of the deceased meeting the crown prince. They hit it so scared. I go for a ride to clear my head which in my case. Of the wheel. If im seriously going to consider living here i need to see whether i could meet someone. In their lives since that. Point of ok no. I dont like anything. Right off to no no. I think you dont realize how much the time you have a place and then enough plenty of good for much of a time to. Take to be that may say but. I could never date someone has to do that. But when i raise the idea of going on a date tells me no way. I called my brother back in the u. K. To get his advice im going to do but the concept of going and sitting at a table with another man effectively course years i but just like the strangest thing to them i get married to a world at all those are 2 worlds like the story most of the time it takes you and we saw it. Tricks and these just keep hoping id be back next time fixing are you with them right i just dont rejoice that you want to live straight but the end of the day i say go for it because you can do it i wouldnt take any series of life their thoughts on this wherever the consequences are its and reversible it was there was no guilt. Guilt here theres nothing to be guilty i dont let me tell you that im letting go of letting people die. This time the only thing people dont want to be getting myself here right ok guys i better go because ive been in the room with a locked door for a while that makes it look like im like. I need we are annoyed tonight to reverse the reverse that you did this is not a man who left her by yourself look at it while you have to. Be shocked me about how the real. Estate among them told ok. Vsam it was the outside world still folks in the case we decided to go to mecca. Have mercy but have a several. That meet somebody in the league take your i think help mr heston if it means that its time to eat i just want to offer up and if Concert Company told me he. Just sat in his innocence and happened to me before happy to go home and say this. Man helps me into the state of a room. This to purity need to be a free enter mecca. If i dont get past it myself and thats a dead heat you know if any of them have it with me and even if theyre not sick just because. They keep them almost like. For the 1st time in a while as to think more closely about my relationship with god. Our. Family said that she wanted us to do. And now suddenly feel guilty for doing it without her. It would not be. True here we. Go i ring it after i get past the mountains. Like. It love it evarist. As here. He was living in the moment where i suppose she was. Left in this they should be doing lets face. It it was. More. That. This life is a moment like that ok but i sat with this woman feeling it was. So hard. For me to mean i think you know that even when im out of my. Life for the longest lives. Are not allowed to enter mecca so we stuck to that just turn back. Misuari out a way. To something incredibly moving about being here with thousands of other people. Well he certainly will not be given that kind of money to get to this list and we can im just yes i know well that. Yeah i smoke and even. Which it could read out like that in my zone i mean its not that i yeah because he i make. It look if. I get that you know i think a good look want to go in and we have. Theres a lot about being muslim that i love and visiting mecca reminded me of that but the way saudi interprets the rules of islam sometimes feels wrong it scares me that as a woman i wouldnt be totally in control of my own life if i lived here. Im not sure id want to raise a daughter in a country where her male relatives can make her decisions for her. Just recently i heard about the case of a half a. Saudi teenager effect to thailand has kept her from insanity alleging abuse. And there are so many other stories like hers. But as i keep finding with sanity nothing is clear cut. Looking for a place to exercise i come across a mixed group of men and women whove been in public. I decide to join the next session but 1st i need to find something to run and. This is your gym because i used to work on a train or. Woman ive only been able to run in public in the last year so im because most women still wouldnt feel comfortable running with. James. Has designed special sports. This was our original color yeah. It comes in 2 different ones it comes and forge with me when there are boring and then theres the arch. This one which is more suitable. For by. And i tried yeah for sure. Yeah but. Thats the goal and. Right this is all i have yet. Its just im worried what if i can literally do whatever youre. Like me because it started making a connection with people like im working in your area and we see each other from far away its like we both you know i was so low we did this this weird yet really connection really feeling between people i think thats the change means now the saudis changing everyone feels like lets kind of get together and its pretty that these are like hubs of being like oh that were both doing it we have been for a little bit you know its not constantly why does anyone like a few months ago and now its gotten so much better yeah because there are a lot a lot more girls behind the wheel right now but its like we still need a lot of work. Speaking to jane reminds me that ive already been here a week but i still havent driven a car. Its hard to believe the before june 2018 women would be arrested for attempting to drive i dont see how to raise. It to touch your head who did suffer some doing it and i go deaf and thats where the answers go to make me and ive been in. A cause in my part of the water i want to just make sure. I know its going to be a delicate matter but i tell my aunt that i want to drive a car but look sure that you we pulled for you drive in from the same time i love it here ok so youre worried about. Driving rather than being allowed. Im afraid that everything anything we have been ok will take all our happiness no. You did for the 1st time the look im writing now all right if you want so much right. So its about keeping up appearances so everything happens im creating abide. I was trying to understand. On the field in call from rick to say that you can hear the sound of this license for like right on one or 2 years or more everything that you and everyone can always. Write ok then but im not all right stride. So youre protecting your own thats not going to meet one of the 1st im going to want to know your life well you might as well never be as good ok because if what they want is going to happen ok so i love everything. You believe love to do with it. Was. Sort of. What. No it. Doesnt. Get. By. You ive decided to take my chances if im going to live here i need to be able to get around a man. I might even be the 1st british woman to drive in saudi. Our government minder is at the car rental place when we arrive and hes already decided where he wants me to try to get him off the ship shall. I go home. Or i close is not so it still is official and. What. It does it is. Just 2. Days. Out of the right so this is something different. I havent told them that this is my 1st time driving with an instructor i only got my license 2 weeks before coming. Left left left left therefore there was a narrow focus tries to tell a. Kid to pick out. The. Trash if nice houses look at that as a house is a palace. And let the people who live here work us the clothes people. Are businessmen a lot higher position they cover their needs to kill him in. The company. The fixer instructs me. To where he wants me to try. To crack make you turn. Thats a big statement into there yeah youre right of course he did you turn you only did you heard him. Talk away before now i know you told me before but i dont we dont actually do you turns the u. K. There a little bit so now i think that there i cant really. I need to understand the privilege that i have right now. Where 2 women in the front seat of a car which is only be available today in this kingdom. In the last week i. Am the. Police stop for a minute we ask our fixer to get the s. P. From the other car so we can play some music. Its not mean just her alone and people activists who campaign for the right trance. On the evening of september 26th have sat at home in Riyadh Saudi Arabia anger smartphone she was not the only one under god order that she was then i think of a midsummer calls to sell for other womens rights activists in the government effectively want to take credit they dont want the activists to take credit for they feel like theyre like we as men devotee. Even if theyve been advocating for 3 years. The article goes on to say others are now in prison. Minutes later the me turned sour. So. Why are you outside you dont need to be outside it turns out the one of our local crew overheard us talking about them present activists and immediately reported it to the government minder. The people in charge of the fixers company are furious. We didnt look like this is crazy but i literally was just reading an article. Because were going to be fighting for the right to drive and i can drive because women are fighting for the right to drive because were going to fall for the rights drive now i can drive. It in the car for a 2nd just because. Shes basically said stop going into the speak to me campaign. Shes like thats not so this is not what he said it was due to the story of the truck. I dont know you from. And why should i care about activists the only reason women can drive is because the king is about it. And state. Control is. To drive us back home and tell us not to film i said the house where they contact the government and react im not going to sit here idle. And wait. What i wouldnt give to be at home right now. I think were going to get i was going to my piano and. Let all those. And see. If you. Could hear. Kids securing. Their lives from you. And go. When we go home for short. d the stern need. For. The fix is to stop replying to our messages receive a text from our office in london. d d get your face in the work. I do know where you heard the social might pull the plug to the following question were still waiting for a letter from them maybe told us many times you love al but the Current Situation and the pulling it. So now are. No really like now what. 1500000 baht. Else a common bond from a country that back its a sentimental value. Im so nervous the skolem i make yes you know. The next morning we call our boss. Off the country. Things out as we speak singers the government. With the from mission because they are. Angry saying we have done. Wrong things by. Sensitive sure start womens cry cry on the current story about souter. Chance. Im disappointed because like i just guessed this week was like we were do so many find the missing things that job doing this week like. Its such a shame for those reading female entrepreneurs this read and i was going running with a running client i mean i dont dislike this country and id like the people of have a nice time i mean its almost like you have to leave the country of the old kind of. Thing that they want to do and. Dont try is the western china positive life light of something that they dont want to they dont want us to shed a light on their own country. And next step of us but now its like how far its just a shame more than saying its a shame yeah im really disappointed. Because. Then looking car or went wrong ok just just. Fine stop you all and i think this will be a very big experience for both of you ok thats what us also ok for me i dont want to feel sorry afterwards theres nothing. To it. Ok. The longest they really were lucky lucky for peace he is known before you believe. Were picked on to the next flight to london. Is. Going to be a low. Key. Item im not going to leave it. Ringback alone as i. Am sad to have to leave mt so abruptly. I came here to see if i could live in the country i was born and. The supposedly new saudi arabia. I despite the horror story of the murder of the saudi journalist. I was willing to give it a chance and hopeful that it might restore my sense of identity. But it seems the saudi hasnt really changed enough. Im not wanted in this country. Just because i mentioned the name of a female activist in an effort to understand what right have heres a woman. I dont think saudi is a bad place but a lot would have to change before i could ever think about making my life here. Saeco india. Greenhow means more than having lots of clumps designed the materials the Energy Source all have to be sustainable upcycling also reduces the climate impacts of. Living an eco friendly life can be inspiring going green looks good to eco. On t. W. Be in good shape. There is no cure for a child. Thats how can one lead a normal life with a potentially deadly virus they are working on a vaccine as a therapeutic drugs. And may be able to defeat the virus one day we talked to hendricks today leading a child by a recent job of good shit. 30 minutes on t. W. This is some joke story about a stubborn rice farmer from thailand. His problem pests. His credo no chemicals. And his trainer. Step. Out. Similar to. The students or the parents dont stick to. The training successful. Soccer that starts july 27th. This is news and these are our top stories and you summit in brussels has been extended into a 4th day as late as haggle over a 750000000000 euros will cover play i remain divided on how much should be paid out as free grants and how much as bundes some northern countries want strict controls on spin