Returned with the sewing machine sewing i suppose was more appropriate for goes than writing advice as no i want to meet those women back home who are bones by their duties and social norms and informed of old dead basic rights my name is the about of people homes and i wore into. The. Business. With my where am i now. Where is my pace on this. And my own earth where all human lives are worth the same or am i on an earth where my life is worth something in spite of my dark skin i never thought the one rolled out the other. I didnt think that as a human being with human rights my rights could be denied to me systematically day for day sometimes covertly and sometimes overtly. Ive inherited trauma ive inherited pain and that pain is indescribable. I grew up in stuttgart and attended a high school with over 2000 students and pretty much all my friends were white i didnt look like they did and didnt do the same things at home that they did they didnt eat the same dishes i did and they didnt party like we did. Everything was just different. And in a way i always had the feeling i had 2 identities and had to adjust depending on who i happened to be hanging out with god. Gave me a feeling of belonging because it didnt matter what skin color i had or who i was friends with all that mattered was dancing and having fun. You can run into a group of nazis at night its not like it isnt dangerous to be black or have a migrant background and its not just about the things people say not just name calling things like oh what your to university or what you were to Preparatory School im thinking whats wrong with me going to prepare a school or studying these things make it hard to feel at home because you dont look like the others and dont have your roots here even though i was born here speak the language and im a university. She doesnt want to hear the question. As. Black person you know when you bring a child into this world that its going to be black and you ask yourself do i really want to bring a child into the kind of world were living in i dont know whatll happen to my child when he or she goes to school who will my child run into on the street at night. Bisan and her brother joseph often like to play basketball and their berlin neighborhood they were born and raised here but theyre also very familiar with the feeling of not belonging. But sometimes you hear the big kids at my school use the n word. And unfortunately i cant do anything on my own about that. I have to go to the teachers and they take care of everything. But you know when someone calls you the n. Word my mom always tells you in one ear and right out the other. Wes you know there are teachers theres me there are parents you can always talk to us. That happens every day doesnt it. That. I know when i was one of the. Somebody insulted me like that i go straight to the teacher the teacher fixes everything thats my plan for always. But dont forget the teacher is the only one who can help you you can help yourself by saying hey quit that enough of that its not cool and so youve got a mouth to do what i want. When growing up as a black child and linda Multicultural Capital blame is part of life at age 12 bizarre as the elder after to know. What kind of ice cream do you want ill take. On. What it tastes like like color match mine taste great. Have you ever had that feeling out on the street that someone didnt like you you know the full mark. So they insult my language and. Oh oh i know what you mean they think you speak another language and they say something. One of the. Chicken has some nice chicken i wonder why they say chicken everyone eats chicken. Its a racist stereotype with a long tradition among right wingers in the United States former black slaves were often fed on chica. Many teachers always used to underestimate me they didnt realize how much i can do and often they didnt call on me at some point i just got so angry and sad that i simply ran out the door. And then i just cried a little. Bit after they came out and asked me why are you crying and i said because you never call on me. And they said ok from now on well treat you differently. Im not. Going to. Get over the bad start to become an outstanding pupil shes met the top of her class 3 times in a row. And as a social worker she supervises a group home for youngsters with mental disabilities. And im sure when i get on the subway train sometimes i feel the looks i get under certain tension for example that someone holds their bag a little closer or somebody will scrutinize your hair or your hands in the summer when youre wearing a dress or something they might take a close look at your legs and you just never know is it admiration like wow what beautiful hair shes got what great makeup shes wearing a result discussed you never know. Thank you for. Me as a berliner as well in autumn she will take a persons geology studies the killing of george floyd in the United States shocked her. She took part in the black laughs met a demonstration in berlin together with her mother and friends. Now its at a point where id say weve seen enough weve heard enough this is the point where something really has to happen where theres a need for germany its politicians and the media to realise that theres a racism problem here and now major steps have to be taken to do something about it at all levels. In schools too there are a petitions calling for colonial history to be included in the lesson plan and for the n word to be prohibited at last also for steps at the political level in the bundestag and with the police in germany something really has to happen in all these areas. Drink something its important to drink enough. Very close to her mother realized very early on that her child was treated differently from white children. She took ballet lessons like any girl she wanted to dance ballet in a pink tutu and jump around and she came out of the troy lesson totally dejected kalsu me was always a happy child and laughed a lot she was really lively but she came out pretty dejected with her shoulders drooping she was 3 years old and said mama i dont want to be brown anymore of course i was really sad for her but i had a pretty good idea what was going on she had realized at that age im always the only one who looks like this and ill never have long flowing hair and be able to blend into the group always stick out somehow. I can remember another moment when callista me said does it ever stop thats pretty tough when an 8 year old child sums it all up like that and i still remember how i sat there and said i dont know we have to find a way somehow what do you need what do we need what might help is it the environment is there something we should say do we have to work on responding somehow what will help you last in. Moments like that or spurred into action she started to play a group for afro german children so at least once a month her daughter would have the feeling of being one among many today all those children are almost grown several of them still get together in a total plural society. I think its kinda off as a child i still believed in an ideal world somehow i think the problem is just this or that but then when you consciously realize the situation and read about it and find out youre not the only one experiencing it its kind of disillusioning. But i in so many people i know grow accustomed to it relatively quickly because its just been so many years and ive had to develop a strategy for how i deal with it. I think he and we can move them and. Process must look at all racism can really be damaging especially when you get these micro aggressions every day and thats something to be taken seriously many people want to hear about these experiences they might think oh well its once a month you know its every day when you go out every day it starts with the media you can see him at home and then you go out and get these looks and there are these questions. If you dont get a job or an apartment you applied for its not always for racist reasons of course but thats always one of the 1st things you wonder was it because of my skin color. Or was it because im a woman with a really too many applicants was my resume not good enough and what was it its hard to talk about and nobody would admit it openly and honestly. It was in the. Hands. 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