How much time does it take for place to become indelibly marked on one summer. Colors sense a few photos and dream like images thats all i have left from the first seven years of my life in kazakhstan. After that my family emigrated to germany. Never returned. Twenty five years later my mother announced she would go back with her sister for a visit i decided to accompany them. Frantic African Women and as lean to see my son in south africa ten thousand kilometers away why cant i go to color tan my husband said he wouldnt go that. Route and i met up with my sister and told her id love to go back to capital and visit the grave down on fun and fast on scrap. The person dearest to my mothers heart was undoubtedly her father a vulgar german who was deported to siberia during the Second World War a truck driver who quickly fell in love with the wide open spaces and the steps. That the movement from it can only dan had there was sometimes he took me with him he asked me if i wanted to drive i said yes so he sat me down gave me the Steering Wheel and i drove the truck and he can help you just have to drive straight ahead you dont need a lot of skill im driving and driving and then i look over us driving experience its a good book. Yet its a bill to the buyer my father loved giving gifts if i was sick i was always happy because i knew my father would bring me a gift its been his above the. Net his beloved dog he was very kind hearted. And my mother was strict she raised us and he brought his presence. That was my upbringing. And then football at this. The book then he died my mother was the only one of them all that remained was the strict upbringing the belief. That. Would maybe thats why i have such special memories of my relationship with my father he loved me very much and i loved him very very much. When he died i thought my life was over still living as a little anxious. Like the little boy this new girl sometimes we get snow here in the winter while not a single snow flake cools there this is cartel. Money not. An anti ana are you excited. Must be some. Young. Candidate i know for the fifty i feel different plans sometimes i did well up so many memories are coming back tonight or will be added to that ill find everything at once after five here atlanta after. I left here at forty seven and now at seventy one im coming back on a different i dont think. A. Lot of. Us are. Coming. Off. This is a lot of support this long i dont know i have quite a different feel. Unhandled says. My mother was eight when her family moved from siberia to cairo tau the town by the Black Mountains in kazakhstan swarmed south in one thousand nine hundred with her family she left the town which had a population of forty thousand at the time. Today its home to just twenty thousand people or so apart from a few friends from his school days my mother doesnt know anyone and kyra talon news. Coverage out the green always is in the middle of the steps the clean affluent soviet showpiece town what has become of. The apartment block with the circular staircases people here were once proud of this modern building it was home to many young families what defines the town scape today. Where and how do the people here live in. This square in front of the white house its the town hall and a Parade Ground where the red flags were once waved with pride all for one and one for all. Wheres the pride and patriotism today where are the others and where are we. Headed. Thats about the only of the torture. That. Pushes the germans have been gone for twenty four twenty five years everythings run down now there were roads everyone was always surprised by how nice it was here the roads were surfaced and it was green. Well. Oh yeah. I think. It was you actually giving out money more your. Car do a little back the year for you how was the drive how are you alec is here. Look look look look look look look. I didnt realize i was driving them to you until i reached counter no one. I brought you to keep from tashkent the gulper. One for the go and those for the boys. I think these are National Ones we dont have them in kazakhstan. To tell you auntie ada bought seven or eight all for her grandchildren. Theres a sense that if theyre. Not. Like. That. Used to live here yes. Greet our fellow countrymen thank you nice to see. Specific. Dont we should ask are we taking pictures of the house. If the idea is that yes well walk around everywhere that. Will. Come in and be our guest. Im worth a couple of bucks for her well if you come from from germany. But what town she is from for time for. So long why you encounter tao did you live here once we used to live here that. Was it. That that tells. You how to suppress and i was a bit worried that locals would be wary of us all that we wouldnt be so well received film from the so called of. The National Park you know when he was a few sent vecchi far as i know so many people left and then things got bad here things were falling apart in the soviet state many people were suffering badly i was worried wed be associated with that connects with all were doing well and here theyre doing badly. If a lowly good will for the detail or even for all the fun cause were truly one slow version of the good you know the well you know that you know youre going through the portal to the whole of it thats all i remember im just not prepared for your prose it was from the heart thank you dear boy that we want expected to be greeted so warmly even though we left the bosom of most of the people down we were here to meet you. Not that we live right you have no idea we missed the five thousand greeks five thousand germans and ten thousand russians the first twenty thousand people you understand even though i told you that what this children weave when you were writing it we miss it thats why we came. Here to. Tell you what it was one. Thing we are sure of one million ways for love. Yes so. Sit down but the question of where we would live and what this is done stand up. Why did the marina the three of us come the only candidate who sings in german. What. If you recall the cover of mine is going to play out. Here. The germans left in the hope of finding a new home in germany the home our ancestors left in the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries they followed the call of desires to move to the russian empire and they built german towns on the volga and in the caucasus they worked hard and prospered during the communist era they were dispossessed and in the Second World War they were deported to siberia. And. As an orphan my grandfather my fathers father earned his living there in a mine he started a family and moved to fertile kazakstan together with other german seeking to start over. There was a mine here to. Tell. The story of the deportation the new beginnings the stories of the mind those were the fairy tales of my childhood. The moral of the story work hard work a lot and do no wrong. The germans lived in the russian empire for five generations they kept their culture and language alive even though they faced persecution and discrimination. Then communism collapsed and half of the town left the fact that nobody was allowed to take along any money for their new beginning in germany didnt stop anyone those who stayed experience because it stands economic collapse very directly. No water no light no security. The ninetys were a dark time for kara tao the abandoned houses were mined for anything that could be either burned or put to use. Thank you. Thanks also to survive state run a mom and we knew he was dying my mother my sister and brother was sitting next to him i was younger i was playing in the summer house with my nieces holes to speed leslie. It was still light outside because it was the twenty first of june six oclock in the evening suddenly this dog started howling it wouldnt stop her from tory. Nirav as i immediately had this pouring in sensed that my father had passed the physical store open. Do you feel closer to your father here yes. Yes i think says that. I feel really happy here as if my dad were right here i cant explain it and. Thats a point for for have been when someone dies the spirit leaves. Comes out of the. Dimension different get the other guy there must be something i dont know looks like. Rice may feel like maybe hes looking down from heaven and seasons and sees me standing here with his granddaughter open for them for him. That would make him happy. Those that didnt get funding. For the children i think that. Our driver this insists on inviting us to his home the traditional meal served to guests is prepared over several days it includes fresh mutton. To see. Just. Where to go with them rather than a room alone or in a. Group. But that one is good right up. Until the one in the. Right. Place. My mothers family settled in well when they moved from. Siberia to correct how thousands of germans were already living here they had much in common german language the forbidden lutheran bible songs from the homeland there was no better place than car a town thats what my mother felt at the time. Indeed the strasser want in part from incident four and we had friends and relatives on every street. Is the other but when i was done with work i would visit someone on the floor i would visit a friend or my sister or another sister or another friend the friend and since i was its force i walked every way it was lovely it was the norm this lawsuit the norm. If they could pick up on this i feel like im not really here im just dreaming. Its on the last links. When she was twenty my mother started her own family. Together with my father ryan hold a german from her neighborhood the soviets called it west berlin. Wrote it was a good. War and you wrote me a billion neighbors. Right but. I just. Cant kill this ladies from germany she used to live here shed like to take some pictures to remember this place of course come in as if you dont want. To. Let the onus on home. Ok ill just look around while. The first run you think in your mind the pretty little one yet not quite sure on which it will come from. To leave the circle a little difficult to know. The things just to let you sleep just a little just. You know. How they are given that. Yeah. Thats fun and this was just the entrance that got the school on it so there was this little fence and different varieties of grapes great that. The folks at the open air for say that. The fence went around here and there was the pergola. And the grapes grow up here. Everything was green so. Thats where we planted the potatoes and tomatoes over there you know for certain stimuli of pop different vegetables such as peppers onions all kinds of things as. They were grapes here under pergola. We sometimes had a caught where we could sleep in the sock and from the office and shaphan conference or so that. I remember we slept there in the summer. Yes we slept a half. And the grapes until we fell asleep. Yeah thats the part where you happy hear ya the special it was nice. In the evening we always had these what are they called cricket is yes cricket it was very hot jur in the day and sometimes it was hot in the evenings hot air would come down from the mountains as if from an oven the constant and back and concise and off the one. But when youre young that doesnt bother you much better than one with fidels. We have our scientists. There was a table here we always sat here in the evenings eating and drinking talking and laughing to laugh not. To this horse and all that on our own give all this little house it was then transformed into a summer house we cooked there in the summers not in the house because it was too hot. But i dont have a self as an for brown thats why i sometimes burnt the food to the children where theyre having their afternoon nap my mum come out alvins my husband came home in the evening at six i was cooking i ran in and out and by the time i was back it was burnt what was i to do around and over so this modern loss of this life and. But there was time before my husband came home i didnt want to put it any way you could see it so i dug a hole and started over it were friends one way to cook. For the little bit dont just run around and then this dog brought my husband a piece of meat i had buried. In the draft and sticks in the phone with. It. As a long time and you cant hide anything from my husband not even now he always finds things out by chance. Its hard to surprise my father so he has all the more fun surprising others at school he stuck in sex down my mothers blouse as a father he had little time for practical jokes we children came along quickly and both my parents worked hard to build a life for themselves. Is a good outlet that evolved says he still put up this carriage an eighty nine we had already sent in our papers but we didnt take it very seriously we didnt think wed actually get to leave. After we sent in our papers but continued life it came as a surprise when we left we were young we took it lightly and. For us to speak german and for our children to learn. To go to school and to be able to attend church for. The kids. But there were lots of difficulties we didnt anticipate that. It was hard in the beginning we werent the germans. To humiliate him to. Some muster so we take a photo of me on hand. But. Yes. If. You go for. A smaller one of the human flesh the holes in just the last. Egg. Life in aziz is family reminds me of my childhood encounter a tough playing outside around the house all day running around my parents while they were working as this is. The fifth of. A mug gives them a push. To. Get him. In the. Well you will hear about all i could get up close to the. Water but yes the soviet union is history not. Even the people who stayed have had to ask questions about their identity and damn about their faith their roots their traditions with one tradition kazakhs have discovered a new for themselves is the game of cock pocket the riders chase each other for the carcass of a goat in order to carry it into their opponents goal. I doubt. That. It is easy to get enraged over the boys or what the little girl like so this is new but they actually has a little little youve come to kazakhstan lets drink to that. So that a regular gust foolish decision like the little you just dont get because youve got a little talk on here. A little. With you last night was interesting not sure if it was a question get up as you go cause it wasnt there was until year eight i was in class w. In years nine and ten i was in class. So thats what you ate in class w. Yes you know those are a lot of omarosa i know i love she should never hit me you always together you forced me to go out with a i dont remember that. I remember you always run around together. But now mr yes thats right. The question finally. They recognize each other all good all of them i was there too and you threaten me with her and i said no i cried how many years had we wont come from school together. Thats thats the mother he said lets both russia shares the rest are next youll say you hugged and you just forgot i. Think hot to the register in the night. I did have i think we have a photo of a somewhat tacky. I did also bluster on the ground here leave leaving. The last scene is new. To me. When you. Marry now look so much like you. Love the. Name. You the you. Tube learns you. See the keep him. In. Custody after chasin story five live apart and. I live here which can. Deal with all of the sludge and. I usually assumption sure that theres a park or forest duck does anyway. Prefer it without herds i scattered them over everything chides still going to show the italian is still mostly lying at any germany they eat even more herds than were used to. Thank goodness enjoy. The minions of trees sixty percent of the children in my class were german with a sort of the actually a coke loss used to have forty two children i was always lucky with Good Students d. G. The only thing i will or she said that sent the question at me and said. My. God i was mysteriously appear in organist when i put my first class together the germans came you came with your mother nina please take my daughter marina into your class and i said fine you want that she will marry no road with her left hand. Donations and thats why i came to ask that she would continue writing with her left hand. At that and. I remember this conversation with my teacher well my gentle mother she achieved things in her own way. Yeah. Another memory i have is of cafe crystal where we often ate ice cream it was a special place so i dressed up in priests girt and put white ribbons in my hair. We children took roaming around the streets for granted my many cousins and i grew up like siblings nobody had to play along. I associate that freedom and feeling of security with car attack with the sand the tickles in your nose and the wind thats playing with your hair its still the same place today. Was. A little. Leery. Of all. The water that came out of the iraq congratulations im very pleased for all of you and i was born in cairo tao and lived here for seven years there is a there city but yesterday as you know i left almost twenty five years ago now i miss it. That puts out thats why im happy to be here to get to know you and celebrate with us because i mean a lot of what the. I know. I do you know more smallpox people almost killed we just agree with our years ago when. We just we were treated like good luck. Not one hundred people not all of them seriously however i want you very very highly valued that was expanded griefs germany we love germany hello there was the year there was a little now. This is the to lift the spirits the source and i can see that its not so nice he announced but im still fund of everything here. So if none of the thirty me its close to my home. Thats of the stock catacomb on this even though i wasnt born here i was born in siberia the town of kalak how feels like home up here just mannheim. I say that from my heart and food habits and. If you didnt know that before this trip. Money not really known not atolls and this man. Says for your would ask a yo name warsaw. Store. Who. Need. Show us only show up. Here. So show us to. Much simba. Sing it to the end and then theyd be asleep so well thats how it was. Because youre a jew a jewish boy from berlin was bulletin and attacked in school the news was heard around the world. Lost consciousness for a few seconds of him here and for his life was on the documentary because youre a jew. Followed by an edition of quadriga which explores living in fear how antisemitic is germany next on g. W. Story that people who hold over information they provide. The fenians they want to express d. W. On facebook and twitter up to date and in touch follow us. Never again in the course of either tells the story as well this took. But the two for. Today she recounts events young people can barely imagine but they try to understand to civil court. Dropping bombs on civilians. Or children the situation escalates is no longer in it for schoolgirls. Ruthless calculation military leaders were coping extent of the massive. Technological brings with it conflagrations massacres. Coming. To her strength february third on t w. The Syrian Opposition will not attend a peace conference next week in russia a speaker said the moscow backed talks were an attempt to undermine the uns effort to broker peace in the war torn country. The statements came at the end of today talks in vienna which stalled little progress in brokering a lasting peace after seven years of civil war