How much time does it take her place to become indelibly marked on one song. Playing. In colors sends a few photos and dreamlike images thats all i have left from the first seven years of my life in kazakhstan. After that my family emigrated to germany. And never returned. Twenty five years later my mother announced she would go back with her sister for a visit i decided to accompany them. Frantic africas women and as lean to see my son in south africa ten thousand kilometers away why cant i go to college than my husband said he wouldnt go there. I met up with my sister and told her id love to go back to carol tell him visit the grave down on fallon im fuckin scrapped. The person dearest to my mothers heart was undoubtedly her father a vulgar german who was deported to siberia during the Second World War a truck driver who quickly fell in love with the wide open spaces of the steps. But not the only one to make the moment more than had there and sometimes he took me with him he asked me if i wanted to drive i said yes so he sat me down gave me the Steering Wheel and i drove the truck has been helpful you just have to drive straight ahead you dont need a life skill im driving and driving and then i look over and see my dad has his eyes closed as if hes sleeping and now theres a car heading towards us i say daddy daddy wake up this is where i had my first driving experience its a good book. Yet its a beautiful but my father loved giving gifts if i was sick i was always happy because i knew my father would bring me a gift its because of me but the. Net is bullshit but he was very kind hearted. And my mother was strict she raised us and he brought us press. Since. That was my upbringing. And then coupled with this one as a book then he died my mother was the only one then all that remained was the strict upbringing. That. Would maybe thats why i have such special memories of my relationship with my father he loved me very much and i loved him very very much. When he died i thought my life was over still that it did me as it will show us. The little boy this new girl sometimes we get snow here in the winter while not a single snowflake fulls there this is carrot town. Not that. Im anti out or are you excited. Musta missed something. Young. Here cant take it i know for the fifty i feel Different Things sometimes i get well up so many memories are coming back to be added to it that ill find everything at once ive never felt yet left after. I left here at forty seven and now at seventy one im coming back on that without a. Lot of. Getting. Up with. I dont know i have quite a different feeling here that. My mother was eight when her family moved from siberia to cara tao the town by the Black Mountains in kazakhstan swarm south in one nine hundred ninety with her family she left the town which had a population of forty thousand at the time. Today its home to just twenty thousand people or so apart from a few friends from his school days my mother doesnt know anyone and carra tau anymore. Cutout the greenaway says in the middle of the steps the clean affluent soviet showpiece town what has become of. The apartment block with the circular staircases people here were once proud of this modern building it was home to many young families what defines the town scape today. Where and how do the people here live. In. This square in front of the white house its the town hall and a Parade Ground where the red flags were once waved with pride all for one and one for all. Wheres the. Pride and patriotism today where are the others and where are we. Not only have heard so much. That. The germans have been gone for twenty four twenty five years everythings run down now there were roads everyone was always surprised by how nice it was here the roads were surfaced and it was green. By a. Long. Way it wasnt. Even your mom or your the self so. What. Car do you want to hang back the year for the how was the drive how are you alec is here. Look look look look look. I didnt realize i was driving them to you until i reached kara trying to hammer and. I brought you to take you from tashkent there gulper. Be. One for the girl and those for the boys to let me. Know these are National Ones we dont have them in kazakhstan. To tell them they arent. Seven or eight all for her grandchildren. If it doesnt. Look. Like. That. Did you used to live here yes. Treat our fellow countrymen thank you nice to see. The super. Dome we showed us the young are we taking pictures of the house. Is doing exactly yes well walk around everywhere that. Mark will. Come in and be our guest. Im going to work on but not hold on we have you come from from germany. But what time shes from far time for. Why you encounter tao if you live here once we used to live here that. Was it. That that felt good and that. You have the sufficient i was a bit worried that locals would be wary of us or that we wouldnt be so well received film from the so called of. The western world were killed by lives a few sent vecchi far as i know so many people left and then things got bad here things were falling apart in the soviet state many people were suffering badly i was worried wed be associated with that we for can if with all were doing well and here theyre doing badly. Its a little really good deal for the detail or even for all different because were short on slow version of the deluded well lurker you know whats going through the portal to the whole of it thats all i remember im just not prepared for your prose to get over it was from the heart thank you dear boy that we want expected to be greeted so warmly even though we left at the bridge you must love again we will get to meet you. Never leave the night you have no idea we missed the five thousand greeks five thousand germans and ten thousand russians thats twenty thousand people where you understand even though i told you it that whats this chilling with when you might hit missile we miss it thats why we came. Here to. Hold out what the world wants. I think you are the first one when there is for the. Yes so scott sit down but the guy was one of the members on what hed see done stand up. But in the story of rina the three of us come the only cancer who sings in german. What. It is because the cover of my name is compiled. A good bit of. The germans left in the hope of finding a new home in germany the home our ancestors left in the eighteenth and nineteenth century. They followed the call of desires to move to the russian empire and they build german towns on the volga and in the caucasus they worked hard and prospered during the communist era they were dispossessed and in the Second World War they were deported to siberia. And. As an orphan my grandfather my fathers father earned his living there in a mine he started a family and moved to fertile kazakstan together with other german seeking to start over. There was a mine here to. Look. To. The story of the deep. Taishan the new beginnings the stories of the mind those were the fairy tales of my childhood the moral of the story work hard work a lot and do no wrong. The germans lived in the russian empire for five generations they kept their culture and language alive even though they faced persecution and discrimination. Then communism collapsed and half of the town left the fact that nobody was allowed to take along any money for their new beginning in germany didnt stop anyone. Those who stayed experience cuz extends economic collapse very directly. No water no light no security. The ninetys were a dark time for car a town the abandoned houses were mined for anything that could be either burned or put to use. In an impulse of a selfish state on the mom wont we knew he was dying my mother my sister and brother was sitting next to him i was younger i was playing in the summer house with my nieces holes to speed. Well lets listen. It was still light outside because it was the twenty first of june six oclock in the evening and suddenly this dog started howling it wouldnt stop tori. Nirav a safari immediately had this pang and sensed that my father had passed on opposites crystal open. Do you feel closer to your father here. Yes i think cells that. I feel really happy here as if my dad were wrong here feel i cant explain it if. Its of my father who have them when someone dies the spirit lives. In the south of the land and you mention different get the other guy there must be something i dont know. Rises with phyllis maybe hes looking down from heaven and seizes. Sees me standing here with his granddaughter open for them. That would make him happy both of them could finally. Well thats all that i think of. Our driver as this insists on inviting us to his home the traditional meal served to guests is prepared over several days it includes fresh mutton. Sits. Down with me to go with them will grow more than a room alone or in a. Row like that one is good right up. Until the one you know. My mothers family settled in well when they moved from siberia to colorado thousands of germans. Are already living here they had much in common german language the forbidden lutheran bible songs from the homeland there was no better place than car a town thats what my mother felt at the time. The strasser wanted part from the incident for and we had friends and relatives on every street. Is down about fifty five when i was done with work i would visit someone on the floor and i would visit a friend or my sister or another sister or another friend the friend and since i was its force i walked every way it was lovely it was the norm this lawsuit the norm. If they stick around with us i feel like im not really here im just dreaming. Its all malacanang slinks. When she was twenty my mother started her own family. Together with my father ryan hold a german from her neighborhood the soviets called it west berlin. Broke the laws of. War and you had a billion neighbors. Like this it. Was like just. Then they killed this ladys from germany she used to live here shed like to take some pictures to remember this place of course come in if you dont want. To read. This let the onus on home. Ok ill just look around and. Read you can your mother for it really was not not what your son just wanted to tell from. The subtle look that was the sooner you start. Getting closer to. Sleep the sleep. You know. How they are going to. Let you. Pass from and this was just the entrance that got the school on its own there was this little fence and different varieties of grapes grow that. The folks at the open air for satan is often. The friends went around here and there was the pergola. And the grapes grow up here. Everything was green so. They could go for it because thats where we planted the potatoes and tomatoes over there you know for certain stories of the different vegetables such as peppers onions all kinds of things. That were grapes here and a pergola that happened around we sometimes had a cot where we could sleep in bed so that in the office and shuffle conference or so. I remember we slept there in the summer you know had yes we slept in half. And eat grapes until we fell asleep. Was the good we you happy here yeah the special it was nice. In the evening we always had these what are they called cricket yes cricket it was very hot during the day and sometimes it was hot in the evenings hot air would come down from the mountains as if from an oven to confront and back and concise and off the one hand but when youre young that doesnt bother you much but then again with this film loss. Here fish. So there was a table here we always sat here in the evenings eating and drinking talking and laughing to laugh not. To this horse and all that give all this little house it was then transformed into a summer house we cooked there in the summer not in the house because it was too hot. But i dont have a shelf or model s. And for avant thats why i sometimes burnt the food to the children where theyre having their afternoon nap my mom come out alvins my husband came home in the evening at six i was cooking i ran in and out and by the time i was back it was burnt what was i to do around also this mom listen with laughter. But there was time before my husband came home and i didnt want to put it any way you could see it so i dug a hole and started over it were from when we were cook. And i want to leave the little that dont just run around and then this dog brought my husband a piece of meat i had buried the night that live in the draft and sticks it before well see. It. As a for the month and you cant hide anything from my husband not even now he always finds things out by chance. Its hard to surprise my father so he has all the more fun surprising others at school he stuck inside down my mothers blouse as a father he had little time for practical jokes we children came along quickly and both my parents worked hard to build a life for themselves. After he still put up this carriage in eighty nine we had already sent in our papers but we didnt take it very seriously we didnt think wed actually get to leave. The wreck father. To clear up the cavern after all we sent in our papers but continued our normal life it came as a surprise when we left that we were young we took it lightly. As we have not but we imagined it to be lovely to go somewhere for us to speak german and for our children to learn. To go to a German School and to be able to attend church freely of the kids. But there were lots of difficulties we didnt anticipate. It was hard in the beginning suddenly we werent the germans any more that was a bit humiliating to. You so much for we take a photo give me your hand. Yes. If. You go for. A smaller one of the human flesh the whole scene just mumbles. That. Life in aziz his family reminds me of my childhood and current time for playing outside around the house all day running around my parents while they were working just this is. The fifth of. A mug gives them a push. To look him. In the. Well i think a lot of. A lot of. The soviet union is history and. Even the people who state have had to ask questions about their identity and damn about their faith their roots their traditions one tradition kazakhs have discovered a new for themselves is the game of cup part the writers chase each other for the carcass of a goat in order to carry it into their opponents goal. I doubt. That. It is easy to get in brazil although that was judging by the lives of go like. This here but i actually was a little the go youve come to kazakhstan lets drink to that by the way so theres a regular gust fish dish i like that i trust you to visit to join you because youve got a little folklore here. Lets go. With you last night was interesting not really. But it was it up as you go cause it wasnt there was until year eight i was in class w. In years nine and ten i was in class. So thats what you ate in class w. Yes or no i want to live on a rover now i know i love speeches yes a lot you always together you forced me to go out with a i dont remember that. I remember you always run around together you. Know mr williams thats right. Or wrong question finally they recognise each other or look at the whole game i was there too and you threaten me will you go out with her and i said no no i cried how many years did we walk home from school together. Thats the limited use of the last post office share stories the next youll say you hugged and you just forgot i. Think heart of the registry night. I did have i think we have a photo of her some while back. I did us a glove stitch came on the granny nearly living in. The us is new. To. The marina look so much like. The world the live the bowls in a. Little snow in the first year. The answered learn as you. Come to keep. I. I. I. I saw the chasseur so i have to live apart and. I hear of. The world all of those loves a new love. I usually assumption sure well theres a box office dark does anyone prefer it without hands ive got to the other everythings possibly a childs some kind of show in the interim you still may feel like any germany they eat even more habs than were used to. Thank goodness enjoy. The millions of the truth sixty percent of the children in my class were german this. Sort of that actually ago closs used to have forty two children i was always lucky with good students. If only in your will or she settled the question at me and said. I was music to see a piano in organist when i put my first class together the germans came you came with your mother nina please take my daughter marina into your class and i said fine you want that and she will learn you know wrote with her left hand. Elaborations and thats why i came to ask that she would continue writing with her left hand and the other that. I remember this conversation with my teacher well my gentle mother she achieved things in her own way. Yeah. Another memory i have is of cafe crystal where we often ate ice cream it was a special place so i dressed up in priest gert and put white ribbons in my hair. Cut. We children took roaming around the streets for granted my many cousins and i grew up like siblings nobody had to play along. I associate that freedom in feeling the security with counterattack with the sand the tickles in your nose and the wind thats playing with your hair its still the same place today. I. Was. Come. To. My knowledge available all the others. Wouldnt want to look about for congratulations i very please for all of you i was born in kara tao and lived here for seven years theres idiocy but i did look at that as you know i left almost twenty five years ago now i miss it watching that i would say thats why im happy to be here right now its to get to know you and celebrate with us because i mean a lot of us. I know. I do you know most of all that walk the walk home school which is through with our own years ago where. We just we were feeling like good luck. A lot of other people there for whatever it was whatever i want you for everybody here your dad was expanded greaves germany we love germany here i love there must be a little bit of the world now. This is the to lift the spirits the source and i can see that its not so nice. But im still fond of everything here. So if none of you sort of stood me its close to my home. Most of the stock catacomb on the south even though i wasnt born here i was born in siberia the town of kalak how feels like home up here just mannheim. I say that from my heart and food habits and. If you didnt know that before this trip. Money not really known not atolls and placement. With. Syria so far your word us call your name more warsaw. Store. Who. Need. So she just only feel. So share us too. Much simba. Singing to the end and then theyd be asleep so thats how it was. Constantly playing live. With the senses. Recognize. Ended spirits inexpressible. The cultural magazine and. Arts twenty one. G. W. Its all about the moments that. Its all about the studios in subtler its all about George Chance to discover the world from different perspectives. Join us immediately sponsored by distinctive instagram or yours at g. W. Stories the topics each week on instagram the. Circle of fear. Correspondent youre in russia toe is in chechnya. Islamic state has recruited more young people here than anywhere else. And more and more chechen fighters are now returning home their most respected and fears how will this affect chechen society claims. Circlets here today on d w news. Play. This is. From two monkeys see monkey two researchers in china have successfully cloned a pair of monkeys always humans next decades after dolly the sheep was cloned scientists in china have used the same technology to create two healthy monkeys a scientific breakthrough its raising ethical questions about those