said. >> i was wanting to drink, i was willing to take drugs, i was willing to do the things that made me feel less like i was feeling. but i slowly became aware that, okay, i wasn't drinking monday to friday, but i would probably drink a week's worth in one day, on a friday or a saturday night. i would find myself drinking not because i was enjoying it but because i was trying to mask something. >> reena, he said that he doesn't believe anything about the way the media acts has changed since her death, including the treatment of his wife, meghan, the former dutchess of sussex. but with regards to just the mental health impact of this, i hope one of the positive pieces of this is that it evolves the way we talk about mental health, especially the way that how we treat other people affects their mental health. >> that's right, josh. for me this is so close to home. this past year has been a nightmare for me, and i'm very open when i say that. i think women with young