close. so this is -- this has been hard. >> yeah, i can only imagine the feelings and emotions you're going through and what a community you're describing for us. it looks like an absolutely beautiful day in terms of what we're able to see here and in terms of how that all now has changed as a result of this deadly massacre at the first baptist church? southerland springs. have you thought about, carrie, how this changes everything? how -- you know, in the wake of mass shootings that have happened in other parts of the country, did you ever think that it would happen on the doorstep of your own community? >> absolutely not. absolutely not. i never thought it would happen here. i mean, this is something that takes place in a big city. you know -- i would never have thought it would have taken place here. i mean, this is just -- it's too tight a community.