her friend. >> we heard she o.d.'d. so it left me really upset. like i haven't cried since i've been here. that was the first time i cried. because nobody knew anything further than that. they just knew that she o.d.'d somewhere the day she got out. then i got the letter from her a couple days later. like it was such a relief to read that it was written after the fact. like she obviously was still alive. it says "krystle, what's up chickie? me, nothing too good at all. wednesday i shot dope and died. real talk. three times and then the p paddles. so i haven't been with the [ bleep ] dope too hard. but that fear isn't as strong as it was because truth be told, i don't give a [ bleep ] about anything. it's actually quite disturbing. but oh well, all bets are off about anything. don't get too comfortable not seeing me because it won't get too long. as we both know, [ bleep ] happens. so whatever. [ bleep ] i already knew that, though. well, i've got to go because obviously [ bleep ] isn't too pretty right now. i love you more than you know and thank you for everything. i do appreciate everything and mean it. i love you and i miss you.