with his final sentencing hearing only days away, he has written an apology but admits he did so in hopes of receiving a shorter sentence. now he questions whether it's even worth reading. >> so for me to expect anything less than that 45, you know what i'm saying, my last words ain't going to be sitting there groveling to somebody's family and this and that. no. [ bleep ] that. i'm going to stand there and i'm just going to stand there. you ain't going to get nothing out of me. just stand there and look. all right, whatever, it's time to go. i might just turn around and apologize to my own family, you know what i mean? >> viviana's family never expected an apology from goodell. they say it wouldn't change the fact that his actions have devastated them. >> so here is her final resting place. >> three years after viviana's death, her older sister, stella tulli, visits her grave site regularly. adding to the pain is the fact that the murder was committed on their mother's birthday.