how you acted out. >> by -- douching. >> what's that? >> which is throwing urine on them. just your way of letting them know to leave you alone. i mean we're behind the door 24/7. you got officers that go around antagonizing. so, you know, we're only limited to certain things we can do. is it something i'm proud of? no. is it something i'm ashamed of? yes. i always live a negative lifestyle. i always wanted things fast. which resulted in me selling drugs and robbing and things like that. but as i got older i started realizing a lot of different things. i mean endured a lot of losses. which was my son. >> who has your son?