files, and i would go and click on all these files, and then as they downloaded, i would view them. if they were my children, i would want to murder whoever it would have done this to them. so i knew that it was wrong, but looking at a bunch of dirty pictures isn't the same as molesting a child. >> shipps blames his battles with cocaine addiction and alcoholism for several prior convictions, including assault and battery on a police officer. he says child porn became another addiction. >> the addictive part was let's see what we can find that we're not supposed to look at. that was where the addiction part came in, the thrill part. i'm not supposed to have this, so let me get it. it, so that means it must be some reason why. so then i need to see it. >> but it wasn't just